First off i hate the fact that i share things in common with elon musk namely doing ketamine and liking dune
But goddamn that trip was fucking intense im not even totally sure what i witnessed it was complete madness i took maybe 300 mg i think? I dont know if thats a lot but it was a big ol pile of k on my hand and boy did it burn. I put on the dune soundtrack turned on the shower started to dissociate rapidly and then bam! Chaos. I dont even know how to describe it. A state of existence completely orthogonal to human rationality. There wasnt a sense of oneness of the universe or anything, it was more like the skin of reality peeled back to reveal something completely and utterly incomprehensible. A place where definitions and descriptions have no meaning, complete conceptual fluidity. It was transcendent and terrifying. There was no self, no time, no memory of who i was before, only the pounding fall of water, dune, and the screaming breakbeat of my subconscious. I died at least once. Came to staring at my hands and crawled out of the bathtub like the girl from the grudge. All i could say for 30 minutes was holy shit
The more i try to remember the less i understand
10/10 probably going to give ketamine a break for now
Woah, sick. The "skin of reality peeled back" strongly reminded me of a time i did two bottles of dxm syrup and the visual surfaces of the walls and objects in the room i was in began to fall away, revealing the underlying machinery/circuitry that powers reality, or something like that. There were huge bundles of pulsating cables and these arrays of rotating, interlocking gyroscopes, like four-dimensional cogs rotating in both directions and into and out of each other all at once. My friend was saying "darth, DARTH" (except my name) and I was thinking "what is that. what is a darth. Sounds familliar. Wait, is that what i am?" And then i realized i was looking down at my own body from above and snapped back into it. Dissociatives are really somethin'.
Fascinating! Yeah theyre wild. The trip before this i saw... something gestating in the psyche of my city and then it was WITHIN me and i saw its wings unfurling beneath my skin. Then i started whisper screaming hellraiser and event horizon quotes. And when i came back i wasnt sure if i was me or something else wearing my skin
Tfw when your country insists that even fetal urban evil must be carried to term. The miasma of cognition is no place to raise a bewinged demon.
Love event horizon, i should really get around to watching hellraiser.
Honestly i welcomed it, i feel like the birth of an eldritch being is exactly the kind of change amerikkka needs right now and if my body is its conduit then i can only say i am deeply honored
Watch it!!! You'll probabaly love it if you love EH. Its incredible. I recommend 1, 2, and the recent hulu reboot. Skip the rest unless youre in the mood for serious cheese
EXPLORERS IN THE FURTHER REACHES OF EXPERIENCE. ANGELS TO SOME, DEMONS TO OTHERS.
God I wish I could get my hands on some ketamine. I've heard great things
If you do start low and dose up! I found my plug by sheer coincidence lol
The come down sucks though haha i get nauseous very easily so ive yakked a couple times but no ragrets. Just read up on it and prepare urself mentally going in
I describe it as like dying—that’s how I sometimes imagine the experience of dying, and your consciousness getting borked before ceasing to exist.
I read that a sufficiently high dose can cause brain electrical activity to cease for like 30 minutes so i wouldnt be surprised if there was overlap with NDEs. I do feel closer to the concept of death, in a positive way
That sounds like nonsense tbh. Cessation of all electrical activity in your brain for any span of time doesn’t sound like something you come back from.
Here's an article on it
https://www.sciencealert.com/ketamine-experiment-in-sheep-reveals-brain-phenomenon-we-ve-never-seen-before
Interesting as fuck. So it really is like how dying would probably be like.
.3g is definitely hefty if your K is good. i miss the stuff...
