Spent the last two years basically wasted. Surprisingly have moved up a lot in my life in that time, something to be said about the functional alcoholic.
I'm making this post because I feel like fucking hell, and I'm tired and it's like every good feeling has been replaced by dog shit.
But I'm not like craving booze right now and so I guess I'm sort of not dependent on it at the moment. I've been active too, going to shows and parties and such. They've been dramatically less fun, but at least I'm not holed up and away from society like every other time I've tried to get off the sauce.
That's nifty.
Probably will have a drink sometime soon, whatever. Just nice to prove I don't actually HAVE to drink I guess.
DAE desire is the root of all suffering??????
but i hear ya. i have a restless temperament like that, too. hard to be contented with the day-to-day, with what's right in front of my face and already in my life. don't have answers rn sadly, just commiseration
I fear there is none but to find a way to accept your own nature and mitigate the worst impulses that stem from it.
it's a fucking nightmare lmao
Appreciate the commiseration, legitimately
anytime bruv, that's what comrades are for