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  • NaevaTheRat [she/her]@vegantheoryclub.org
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    2 months ago

    Hey nice, I am not you but I wouldn't tempt myself with a drug while quitting. I smoked at that sabotaged my efforts a few times before I quit. I'm not exactly down with the AA type always an addict thinking, but it is worth remembering that brains take to things differently and vulnerability can remain. I don't take nicotine or coke anymore because while I'm pretty sure I would be able to use it and stop I know it would be unpleasantly hard to do so.

    I drink to much atm, it got out of hand during a bad period of chronic pain and it's been a struggle at times. Posts like this are encouraging.

  • LocalOaf [they/them, undecided]
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    2 months ago

    meow-hug

    Hell yeah dude

    I'm making this post because I feel like fucking hell, and I'm tired and it's like every good feeling has been replaced by dog shit.

    But I'm not like craving booze right now and so I guess I'm sort of not dependent on it at the moment. I've been active too, going to shows and parties and such. They've been dramatically less fun, but at least I'm not holed up and away from society like every other time I've tried to get off the sauce.

    Idk if this helps, but (minor) anhedonia when you're detoxing and getting sober is totally normal, your brain chemistry needs some time to refuckulate

    Proud of you catgirl-heart

    Remember that sobriety is a process you have to learn and practice, not a rigid "100% flawless streak" thing overnight for the vast majority of people

    Slip ups are normal too, and they're not the end of the world if they happen, or an excuse to give up and spiral if you really want to get clean.

    You got this 🚫🍸🚫nyet

      • LocalOaf [they/them, undecided]
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        2 months ago

        been there

        have a sad cum bb yes-honey-left

        (sorry)

        I've been trying to channel all my "damn I wish I were fucked up rn" shit into over exercising and chasing the endorphins instead to various success

        I've slipped a couple times but I keep telling myself "you're overall doing way better"

        That doesn't always feel like enough, but I guess you gotta just keep chipping away at it until it settles in for the long term

      • NaevaTheRat [she/her]@vegantheoryclub.org
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        2 months ago

        Alcohol is a messy a.f. drug but it's thought to work on some opiod receptors as part of its action. Unfortunately they're our shit feels nice receptors (disgusting simplification) and exercise, or rather part of the body's response to it, works on that too.

        God hates us, so when our happy receptors are active all the time our brain turns the volume down so we continue to suffer. Removing the alcohol means the volume on the reward pathways is too low right now.

        Fortunately even people who blast the fuck out of those pathways with like heroine don't stop them from coming back to a relatively normal sensitivity and usually pretty fast. So you probably don't have to wait long before stuff feels good again and it definitely will happen if you just grit your teeth and rawdog life for a bit.

  • SoylentSnake [he/him, they/them]
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    2 months ago

    good on ya. haven't gone longer than like 4-5 days sober in probably two years. to your point about being more handsome below, honestly one of the only actual attractions i have to cutting down rn is wanting to hold onto my Very Young For My Age vanity for longer lmao. i suck.

      • SoylentSnake [he/him, they/them]
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        2 months ago

        all valid tbh, i don't even think about how much money i burn on this shit cuz its such a stable part of my ovewrhead but it's A Lot. plus sometimes im doing it just to do it and im not even having fun. but tbh a lot of the times i am having fun and im loving it, cant even use the "i dont even like this shit that much" aspect to cope. that last part goes in phases tho.

          • SoylentSnake [he/him, they/them]
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            2 months ago

            yeah fair. for me, even when i'm not Having A Blast, i still find it to be a comfort around my loneliness-anxiety and evening sitting-around-in-my-apartment claustrophobia. idk, there's a very specific feeling i'm seeking to quell. hard to put it into words exactly. (in my megathread post just now and in other times past i've called it The Gnawing)

              • SoylentSnake [he/him, they/them]
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                2 months ago

                DAE desire is the root of all suffering?????? thinky-felix

                but i hear ya. i have a restless temperament like that, too. hard to be contented with the day-to-day, with what's right in front of my face and already in my life. don't have answers rn sadly, just commiseration

  • theother2020 [comrade/them, she/her]
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    2 months ago

    Good for you. That is huge. That’s cool you are keeping doing things. That was and is a hard one for me but I would feel a lot better than not doing things. Substances work until they don’t. Not sustainable IME.

  • blame [they/them]
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    2 months ago

    Consider switching to near beers if you can tolerate something alcohol adjacent without knocking you off the wagon