EM POC ONLY!!!
This is home for me.
I love all of my comrades on c/em_poc, but I wanna especially give a huge shoutout to @sweet_pecan@hexbear.net for doing a lot to help me keep my composure. I don't know if they quite realize how much I appreciate them!
Each and every single one of you makes me feel less alone through these struggles, though.
I hope all of you are well!
There's something eerily depressing about the fact that even a "good and expected to be much better than average" leftist space like Hexbear is still incapable of being truly respectful to POC.
It makes me wonder if there is truly any hope for the whites to be decent, even in leftist spaces.
I've been quite depressed all morning, but definitely for more reasons than just Hexbear being this degree of racist that utterly shocked me. I think it's still getting to me because I'm in such a shock that, for the first time, a Hexbear post led me into a deep depression that made me cry and have to seek mental health support just to calm down enough to go to sleep.
I never thought this would've happened.
I'd love to believe they could be; but I've been out of faith there for years. I can only see this life's purpose as to be suffering anymore; and I don't know how to un-see that
I've not had trust in white people for the majority of my life at this point. I don't remember when I didn't have that suspicion in the the back of my brain going off. I can tolerate and interact with white people, but the distrust is always there. Too many people who I thought were friends, family, or lovers that would flip the racist switch on the moment I got uppity.
No , unfortunately there is not much hope for us but we can move the ball forward for the next generations and in the meantime stand in solidarity with the left but also with each other .
We are still the out group here and that will usually not be acknowledged but during times of stress we will always be the fall guys.
The only danger is ever thinking that we are not in danger
If they were forced to like they were with transphobia, they would shape up or ship out aside from the wreckers
Or like with yakubian and pumpkin spice jokes they'd just die out after the site (with mod help) decides it's unacceptable