No job prospects. The work I do to support myself is come and go, and im probably gonna miss rent again. The older I get, the less friends it seems I have. None of my hobbies/passions excite me right now and just feel like a pain in the dick when I think about doing them. Every day is the same goddamn routine unless I go stay at my partners place.

It's cold and I hate going out in the cold, so that just compounds stuff further. Everything is dead outside. I'm tired, im always so tired. I can never get enough sleep no matter how much I actually get.

Feels like I'm just existing and I hate it.

  • Thordros [he/him, comrade/them]
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    1 month ago

    I highly recommend a gigantic pot of chili. It might just be that I am highly food motivated, but during the winter I get enormous comfort out of having a warm bowl of beanis and rice waiting for me when the day is over.

    And it freezes great!

      • Thordros [he/him, comrade/them]
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        1 month ago

        That sounds incredible. Do you have a recipe that you could send, or do you just wing it like I do?

        I think my secret autism power might be that I can just grab spices off a rack and know they're going to taste good together. I LOVE hearing about other folks' recipes so I can learn more!

          • Thordros [he/him, comrade/them]
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            30 days ago

            Update: winged it, it turned out incredible.

            I did a pretty bog standard mirepoix of onions, carrots, garlic AND NO CELERY WHY WOULD YOU COOK CELERY THE CRONCH IS THE WHOLE POINT HOLY SHIT I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL, plus some ginger.

            Added some rosemary and thyme, added the barley and some soy sauce for salt, and let it simmer for an hour-ish. Then I fried up some shrooms in olive oil with some salt and pepper. I tossed them in at some point and I don't remember exactly when that occurred. At the very end I tossed in a bunch of spinach and a tiny bit of sambal oelek.

            Thank you for the inspiration!