Hello comrades and welcome to the third improvement megathread of December! 
We recently had an influx of new users and I'd love to hear from them. This is the weekly improvement thread where you can say how you're doing, post your Ws and Ls.
As leftists, there are many excellent reasons why we should strive to become the best version of ourselves. This is the space where we improve together and share our progress.
Here are some of our usual discussion ideas:
- Do you want to share something you've done in the previous week? Everything counts, nothing is too small.
- Do you have any goals or plans for next week?
- Do you have any streaks? For example, "sober for one day." Feel free to post your streak every day in this thread.
- If you don't have a continuous streak, did you manage to abstain from something for a day or more?
- Did you come across some useful information or resource that might help others?
Poster caption: "Conquering Space!"
Good luck with your goals! 
nicotine
Gonna make myself quit smoking after this pack
(SpongeBob narrator voice) This time, for sure
Have a vape and tried zyn but they're just not the same ughhh
6th(?) times the charm though?
fitness
Gone to the gym everyday since November 11th, sometimes multiple times
Hit my old 2020 PR 1rep max on leg press again recently and scared the hoes
It was at the end of reverse pyramid sets too, so my fresh 1rep max is probably even higher, but I'd have to steal like all the 45 plates to hit that and I'd have to have a couple spotters and like nobody else in the gym lmao
Down 4 belt notches, face and tummy slimming and ass and legs lookin' p good ngl
Need to do more core conditioning, want to program a push day that doesn't suck to me (least favorite by far, achy shoulder joint and forearm/wrist issues from my career at the hog cranking factory. I got retaliation fired for trying to salt the floor, fuckin' pigs)
Want to be able to do a dragon squat and a muscle up and bench more than my bodyweight, squat and deadlift 2x leg press 5x (I'm a leg press sicko)
Want to feel more confident free barbell squatting and deadlifting again, might want to learn Olympic lifts, those seem cool but I'd want a trainer for technique and that costs extra and I'm not really swimming in dough
mental health
Very lonely and stressed dealing with family shit
Been meaning to reconnect with best friend from years ago, miss friend dearly but we went silent for years and it's scary and overwhelming
Gonna send friend a Christmas present and letter and hopefully reconnect
Have a homemade gift I think friend would like and a thing to ship it in that was originally gifted to me from them
Need to come up with what to say in the letter and practice my handwriting, I hate my ugly pen(enby)ship
gender stuff, presentation
Actually getting happier with how I dress? Got some clothes recently I actually like? Getting slightly femmier in my day to day and kinda like it? I feel more confident at the same time I feel more acutely weird to normies which feels kinda weird but I'm doing better with that mentally
Got a cute raincoat and new boots and gym clothes I like a lot
sobriety, alcohol, drugs
Relapsed on alcohol last week, had a tallboy and a small black box of wine
Stayed away from spirits
Clean this week
Unsure I really want to try being a teetotaler long term and think I might enjoy the occasional beer or wine but I was (or am, but dry mostly now) a pretty heavy alcoholic for awhile and falling off the wagon even a little kinda scared the hell out of me
Been micro dosing shrooms and taking kratom and those both have been really helpful for me
I think I'm unconsciously funneling my addict impulses into exercise and worry I'll burn out at some point but things are coming up LocalOaf for now
