Some days, I'm communist out of love, I want everyone to have a fulfilling life without the crushing heel of Capitalism, so that they can be happier.
Other days, I'm communist out of frustration, I want everyone to have a fulfilling life without the crushing heel of Capitalism, so they can leave me the fuck alone.
I'm communist because I want everyone to be happy and fulfilled, but I don't have the personality to help on an individual level and building a self-sustaining system sounds easier.