I think you're in an extreme enough situation that we can't write you off as neolib scum.

Besides, votes don't really matter all that much. Someone can win the popular vote and still lose the election. The system is fundamentally broken. Don't beat yourself up over a structural problem that's older and bigger than you are. Be aware of it and work to change it, but don't blame yourself for the crusty old fucks who first put that crooked system in place or the other old fucks who then further twisted it.