I think you are using this website for affirmation that your self-destructive behavior is ok, and appreciated. It’s not. It’s sad. I definitely feel for your situation.

Please you need to work on quitting meth. Straight up, admitting you hang out with druggies is not good. You will continue the drug addiction; for some folks, dropping their drug addict friends or moving to another locale that doesn’t trigger cravings has been proven to work.