okay, thats fine, and even a good point! im also sure many cops could tell you "it was the only job available and i had to take it to feed my family" and in a lot of cases it would even be true! the job market in rural places and even some isolated cities/suburbs is abysmal. but that wouldnt not make them a piece of shit. becoming an armed oppressor, taking on that mantle to save yourself is.....well, i can understand it, but i dont think i can fully forgive or reconcile myself with it.

but then again, i dont have to. its not my country they committed a genocide against. i couldnt ever bring myself to ask victims for nuance or understanding over a genocide. im happy this was restorative for the man in this case, but we have to accept this wont always be so. i believe we have to reconcile with the overwhelming negative impact our country has had on the lives of millions and we have to do that without caveats and concessions for our own feelings on the matter, or else will always learn to justify it.