Maybe I just watch a lotta vlogs, but the thoughts always come back to me. It's like my conscious mind can step back from the controls and watch my subliminal mind take over on auto-pilot. Without thinking about it, my body is taking care of my material needs, my space, keeping me fed and comfortable. That subliminal force is there all the time though, I just don't notice it. It has to be that way for everyone too right? 95% of our personal decisions throughout the day were based on subliminal thought & behavior patterns to keep us comfortable. Even the most spontaneous and erratic brain can only make a %5 sway on the ships course.
It's probably a politically self-interested affirming idea that weed unlocks the Marxism in all of us lol. But it feels nice to have a physiological experience resonate with my beliefs.
Weed just makes me anxious, tbh. But yeah, "the self," "free will," etc. - all of that shit is just an illusion.