Missing my mom a lot today. I watched Santa Claus is Coming to Town by myself earlier, and cried when “Put One Foot in Front of the Other” came on, because it brought back a super vivid memory of her. I was probably 8, sitting on the floor next to my mom while she wrapped presents and I ate the awesome sugar cookies she made every Christmas. Topped with homemade frosting and shaped like Christmas trees and candy canes, which I helped her bake and decorate. But when that song played, I remember her sitting next to me singing along with such a soothing, joyful voice, rocking side to side as she sang.

She always put so much effort into decorations, lights, an obnoxiously-decorated tree, cookies, pies, and dinner. I never realized how sorely I would miss that until I didn’t have it.

I just realized I moved out without taking the ornament she made for my 1st Christmas, and now the house is sold and everything gone. Damn.