for the past few days, it's like my body's not messing around anymore, it just straight up wants me to procreate RIGHT NOW. admittedly it feels kinda good to be this horny, but it's also distracting and annoying, not just because it makes me feel like i have an ulterior motive all the time, but also because i don't have a horny personality, so all this horniness isn't very well integrated into the rest of me.
i'm not really asking for advice, just getting some feelings out
I clearly don't understand asexuality, I beg your pardon for my ignorance to follow. Isn't that feeling the sensual indicator that you are indeed sexual?
It's not really a sexual feeling when I get the urge to masturbate. It feels more like something I need to take care of to get it to go away. Think of like scratching an itch. It's not very often that the urge even arises and when it does its not because of any sort of sexual feelings. I don't really know how to convey it super clearly.
Like, when you see someone you find attractive you might fantasize about them sexually, right? For me, that's non existent. The concept of sex doesn't do anything for me. I thought I was broken for the longest time and maybe I am idk I am still searching for a proper term or label to describe it but it honestly feels like asexuality to me.
Fair enough, thanks for taking the time to talk about it