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  • AbbysMuscles [she/her]
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    1 year ago

    Recently I've been reflecting a lot on how we all define ourselves in relation to the people around us, to some extent. For example, I've always had a very hazy and unstable sense of self. To a large extent I don't know who I am or what my personality is. But if I compare myself to others I can start to get a better understanding - I'm stronger-willed than this person while more of a doormat than that person, I take better care of myself than this friend but I'm nowhere close to that friend, etc. This is always internal and never vocalized. I'm not using this as some moral judgement, just a way to understand how I fit into the world around me and so understand myself better.

    If I imagine taking this idea and twisting it so that my entire identity is dependent on being better than others? I'd like to say it's horrifying, but I genuinely can't do it. I cannot put myself in a headspace of "I'm better than everyone around me. I'm richer and more refined and more sophisticated and healthier and better and..." I'm drawing a blank.

    These people are ontologically monsters, aren't they? Top to bottom, inside and out.

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      • infuziSporg [e/em/eir]
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        1 year ago

        Injera is good, it's much more nutritious than most wheat breads, and its presentation allows for the normalization of sharing.

        Ethiopian food is delicious, and at many places $100 will get you a whole tableful of food. Sounds like a restaurant picked up on its trendy side and overprised everything to cater to opulent rich fucks.

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          • infuziSporg [e/em/eir]
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            1 year ago

            Ugh, I can imagine filthy-rich-people pizza.

            I need to make an addition to one of my truisms. Americans by and large don't eat food, they eat colors and shapes.... Rich people don't eat food, they eat class signifiers.

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          • AbbysMuscles [she/her]
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            It's quite possible it was just prepared a rich asshole way where it was cold and slimy and didn't have to be.

            I promise that Ethiopian food is fucking delicious. Spices like I've never tasted, and injera combines the convenience and versatility of tortillas with a perfect chewy/spongy texture. If you ever have a chance to stop by a restaurant please try it out! As with all "ethnic" foods, you'll likely find the best locations in an immigrant neighborhood of any random city.

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              • AbbysMuscles [she/her]
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                1 year ago

                I feel like that's probably true anywhere with any Mexican food. Or Chinese food, for that matter

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