I was locked in place and became infinity and was tortured for like 10,000 years as I saw the last moments before singularity, with rippling interference as the singularity grew and reality shrunk in chunks and waves. Everything stretched thin before me as I saw the undoing of all, and then suddenly I was in my bed with my cat, sticky with dried, melted ice cream cuddled into my arm.
Also I dropped the ice cream and the cat ate it 
I didn't even do that, I just forgot what dose they were because I've been taking 10mg gummies, and these were 25s.
rip to your house's atmosphere because your kitty's gonna get the shits real bad lol
Yep. It's real bad. She's a friend for dairy and bread for some reason.
me too though, i'm hella lactose intolerant but i just love ice cream smh
My cat has IBS I'd be in panic mode getting out tarps to cover the valuables 😭
there is only one. when you achieve enlightenment, all personas, all identities cease to be. you become a part of the one, there is nothing else.
I wish edibles weren't so inconsistent. If I walk into a dispensary right now and buy 5 different ones at the same 100mg dose, each of them will be wildly different in a bad way. Two pieces of one hits harder than my vape while I can eat another entirely and feel buzzed.
It sucks so much. I naively thought that maybe dispensary edibles would be more consistent
Dispensary anything is wildly inconsistent, at least in Colorado. I barely buy flower anymore just because the same $80 budget ounce might be shitty mids or fantastic and there's no real way to tell even within the same strain.
Wow. My ego death was much more enjoyable. I woke up like Ebenezer Scrooge after the final Spirit's visit. Had to keep myself from rushing out of my apartment because I was wanting to tell everyone that everything in this moment was perfect.
I experience this, too! Often I'll hear classical music out of thin air if I'm really fucking high, and I don't even listen to classical. It's extremely interesting whenever it happens
Ever since a TBI years ago, any time I hear white noise for a while, this starts happening to me too. Sometimes it's conversations that I can't quite understand, as if they're on a loud TV in the other room even though there's just silence aside from the white noise of a fan or air filter or whatever. They're clear enough I can hear the tone and emotion of the conversation, I can clearly recognize if the person "talking" is masculine or feminine sounding, I just can't pick out their words. If I mix in cannabis and my hydroxyzine meds, that's when I get elaborate music, like full on scores. I get classical music like you sometimes, but other genres as well. Sort of like what AlicePraxis was saying, it can sometimes be weird "extreme" music that I've thought was actually pretty awesome. I've tried to write it down even, but I always lose it in the attempt to do that.
If you don't mind me asking, @AlicePraxis@hexbear.net, is your name a Crystal Castles reference? If so, it's kind of funny because often times it's that kind of enhanced 8-bit "chip tune" sound like theirs that I get in my auditory hallucinations.
Brains are weird.
tolerance is a motherfucker. i used to be able to pop them like candy but ive got back to the point where after years of being sober where i can actually feel them again.
Usually I take like 30mg and get extremely fucked up but I took the wrong edibles and absolutely just annihilated myself.
Yeah it happens.
I was called out by some Archons once and they said they would kill me and destroy my soul for my arrogance because I had failed whatever test the drugs were supposed to create. The universe is alive but the intelligence is closer to a snake than a human. It has a cold reptile nature and all the positive things people feel is just the spiritual equivalence of an Anglerfish.
Your soul will be consumed but your consciousness will be kept alive to act as a lure for your loved ones when you die. You'll be fully aware that you're condemning your loved ones to unbearable suffering but you'll be made aware that if they don't fall for the trap, they'll be made to suffer even more for disobedience. In the end, when everyone you know and love has been enslaved, you'll be ground up into the spirit equivalent of ground beef and used to birth new souls.
The best outcome for a soul that can't ascend into the realm of the "gods" is to escape and freeze to death in the cosmic forest. At least your true death is relatively quick and permanent. If you're a god amongst men and wish to go the ascension route, you'll be reborn as the spirtual equivalent of a gnat. There's a snowballs chance in hell that you'll become something at least partly safe in the grand cosmic arena. But if you can, you'd survive and avoid eternal torture.
I mean it could also be a demon fucking with me to scare me but that's what I saw. Once you see dead parents begging their 10 year old to walk into the mouth of unspeakable creatures because the alternative is even worse, you don't sleep much.
I found it too cold and too cruel to be fake. Out of millions of sperm, only one is able to become an organism, the rest die. For those that are born, even emotional and social animals like rats are more or less food for snakes and birds. Creatures that sing to their mates and love their children get consumed en masse by creatures consisting of only a bare drive to consume. People forget all of this because humans are at the top of the food chain.
If life is like this, I guess I don't expect the afterlife to be much better. Except this time, we're at the bottom of the food chain.
So is this ego death people take drugs for the same thing as the depersonalization that just kinda hits me when I'm sleep deprived or whatever?
Nah, I think it's a different thing. Someone experiencing ego death will be totally unable to interact coherently with the outside world at all.
nah it made me relive ptsd and near death experiences as an impartial observer while also feeling them... not the good vibe that getting a little buzzed gives you
made me feel like i was living in a simulation lmao. if anything its extremely heightened depersonalization and derealization, the stuff i normally have was childs play
Sorry for you on that. Sounds rough as fuck and the fact that I get even a diluted taste of that already is enough for me.
whats worse is i took a dose that was so weird that it lasted on and off for like 3 days
i was going insane
ego death on weed is pretty wild, ive only done that with psychedelics.
So I get this 100mg horchata that is super tasty but I found out that drinking one only gives me a slight buzz. So I buy this 1000mg tincture and mix it in and drink like half the horchata. Now that is a fun adventure and will trigger hyperfocus if I get the mix right. Now keep in mind that I am neurodivergent as fuck. I can easily take doses of stimulants that keep most people up for days and have it put me to sleep.
Also I dropped the ice cream and the cat ate it
That is the rule, if you pass out from the edibles then the pets get whatever food is on their level
My dog knows this rule well
i usually take a ten and then for three hours i feel like a watercolor painting that got left in a mud puddle and all i can do is think in slow motion about whether or not i'd have the muscle control to escape if the house caught fire
understandably i do not take edibles, generally
That's crazy, 10mg feels no difference from being sober for me, even if I've had a several month tolerance break.
