hey bud just wanted to say, dont feel bad or guilty, it's about the journey not whatever step you happen to be on at this exact moment, even if it's a shitty one. My partner struggled with alcohol/pills for a decade before getting sober and almost to the day of her first year anniversary of being sober she caved and took a shit ton of diphenhydramine to get messed up, she was pretty broken up about it at the time cuz she was really wanting to get her 1 years token but it's been another year and a half since and she's doing better.

stay safe and I hope your home life calms down soon. solidarity :heart-sickle: