I love that sonic has a halo which tells us he’s a mercy main
Taking a moment to clear my mind and weigh out my options for the future, focus on what I enjoy so that I can narrow down my options. Look into CUNY courses in the field I want and sign up in the mean time finding a new job and saving a lot of my income so that I have a decent savings account in the event I would need to fall back on it. In between work I get home and start working out every day building my physique and starting to become proud of the work I’ve put in and seeing it all in the mirror every time I wake up and have a shower. Start preparing for my reading so I am up to date when I start class. When I start class I study really hard because I really wanna succeed because this is what I want. After a few months in class I develop rapport with a group of likeminded individuals one of which I developed close feelings for but I keep them internal cos I don’t feel the time is right to tell them. I eventually tell them and they say yes and they become a really big part in my life and they allow me to vent and are there to pick me up when I feel at my worst and they really teach me stuff about myself and it really helps boost my esteem. We graduate together, my friends all happy that we passed and earned our degrees, thinking about how shit I felt those years ago but I’m kinda glad all that’s over cos now I can focus on the new me without having to think back to the past because I learned that I can keep living each day without having the past define me. I don’t have to keep holding onto that trauma because that’s not me and that’s not who I am: :cringe:
Smoking weed everyday playing vidya and rewatching always sunny whilst unemployed and depressed af: :big-cool:
I just want a png of :cringe:
Yeah uhh won’t play the game but I think seeing all the vaush posts recently is making me :cringe:
My Grindr account got banned and the few contacts I made gone and there’s no way to contact them so I’m in another predicament where love is just something that I’ve been attempting to be a part of but it’s just so unattainable. Not to mention the pandemic that has impacts on socializing which is something I haven’t accomplished on my own, so self isolating feels familiar. I don’t wanna ignore my feelings and it’s part of what builds up my depression, my inability to form bonds naturally, making friends, finding a partner, I really feel these are essential for you to find happiness. Online bonds are as good as in real life relationships and I’ve been lucky to be a part of one, that alone makes me feel less isolated and even though I might not feel 100% I know I have a shared space where I can feel comfortable. I feel like being in a space with similar individuals who are more experienced helps mould who I am today because although my family have been supportive towards my mental health by allowing me to vent, I’m no longer around family and I feel like calls and video calls are a lot different to being next to the person. I’m not gonna deny any feelings of intimacy I have felt and it’s the best feeling I’ve felt in my life and I think many people can agree with that but I feel in my current state it’s just unobtainable and I’m kinda limiting myself from everyone becoming I really don’t know what I want from my life. I feel like my early age is wasted on the person I am now and even though I’m comfortable with myself, there’s parts of me that I need to really work on mostly my health which I don’t even consider. I don’t eat my diet is really bad I don’t eat and when I do it’s something weird with 0 nutrients, I take my meds at different times each day when I should be taking them in order, I used to exercise but had to stop cos the medicine does something to my heart or something, I need to find work but I’ve just lost the motivation to find any because losing my second job makes me feel like a failure. I’m not happy with much I’m not happy with myself I’m not happy with anything in life. And when I want a connection my ability to get that is taken away. :yea: :sleepless:
I think we should give out doses of fentanyl to the cops and troops
Yeah that second film destroyed me I don’t wanna live anymore
Yeah that was too much I feel sick :stalin-bummed:
I wish everything was better :desolate:
You’re chatting shite now
Probably the worst game I’ve played and I’ve played elder scrolls and fallout nv