Drank two nights in a row for the first time in awhile and feel bad about it
Over the last couple months, have been doing a lot better overall, but it never feels like enough and each falter feels worse when I've trying to be committed to being sober
Idk, I'm angry at myself and disappointed and don't know what to do with that
I'm making so much effort to improve myself and it's just like it all feels pathetic and useless sometimes
I feel really lonely and upset with where I am in my life and just wish I had a partner and some close friends and there's just nothing for me other than masochistic exercise and cats
Don't get me wrong, I love both of those, but it still feels really hollow sometimes
Idk
People need other people sometimes and I happen to be a person and unfortunately don't really have anyone
I get that, loneliness makes the addiction cycle really hard to break :/ Hey, you're coming back and that's what matters yk? Lots of people relapse, not all of them stop drinking again though. I know it's not the same but I'll make sure I try and message you more often