I felt like this all afternoon yesterday. I was dysphoric at work the whole day. Hating how I have to wear this dark, drab uniform that is 100% blue collar masc. Hating how every single woman looks at me like I'm a threat. Anxious in every male space because I definitely feel like I don't belong. Spending my free time looking at outfits, doing voice stuff, coming out to another close friend, and browsing stuff here.

Then I got home and felt like an idiot. Like I'm making it all up. Telling myself I had a pretty normal cis day at work, when I know for a fact that I didn't. Telling myself I'm an imposter invading queer spaces when I don't belong. Feeling like I'll be over this all in a few days so I'm being silly induldging in it.

Then I got out of boy mode, and had one of the best nights I've ever had with my husband.

So I'm pretty new with all of this, but I think feeling like you're not trans is dysphoria too.