want to share something that you don't think deserves it's own thread? wanna chill with your trans homies? wanna support your trans comrades? do it here!
I bought an outfit for my vrchat avatar and tried it on last night. I had no idea I would spend an hour doing spins in front of a mirror and spazzing out because I was so cute. It was an incredible experience and it's the first time I've ever dressed like that, virtual or irl. If I wasn't sure before, I am now. My friend popped into my home world while I was spinning around and dancing. He said he's never seen me smile that much (I have face tracking so it's pretty obvious to see how I'm feeling). I should find a clip of it cause I don't think I've ever looked as happy as I did. Vrchat is an incubator for eggs.
Edit: So I'm gonna go about 4000000 miles outside of my comfort zone and post this. https://streamable.com/jt1nz3
I didn't think I'd react the way I did. I expected I'd just try it on and be like yeah ok nice. Instead I danced around like a doofus for an hour.
Hiii, I hope everyone had a great week and will have a better week than last too!!! 🥰🥰🥰🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🥰🥰🥰
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I'm still trying to find someone to offload months upon months of Estradiol pills and Spiro onto that I have managed to stockpile. Got so much of it and I don't use it anymore (well, need spiro for 2 more months, but that's it).
You use the local trans discord as a base for your polycule.
I use the local trans discord to ask questions about how to use Linux.
We are not the same.
You use the local trans discord to ask questions about how to use Linux
I use the local trans discord to answer other peoples questions about Linux
We might be the same
my mission this year is to make curry roux from scratch and get good at it so ive always got homemade curry ready to go in the fridge
after years i have reached the point where i can't simply pull on a tight shirt without actively working it over my boobs
we really gotta invent the boob transfer machine. there's so many trans girls who could use my boobs better than i ever could
yea, i wonder if my intense hatred of sitting correctly/upright would be quelled somewhat if i got them removed
The exercises meant for my hips and ass are working splendidly. Reports from my wife and girlfriend apparently have me gaining a much more obvious hourglass shape and at least some semblance of an ass. I will continue these with more gusto than I have previously. If about 3 weeks will do this, then imagine what an entire year will do. I will have a proper figure damn it.
I'm actually not sure what the exercises themselves are called, so I apologize beforehand if this is a little awkward.
I use some resistance bands for this purpose. They're fairly cheap on Amazon and work fairly well. The exercises are as follows
- Lay on side with band near the knees on upper leg. Upper leg at 45 degree angle with waist, lower leg at 90 degree angle with upper. I then separate my legs. I do both legs
- I stand up with band in same place. I then kick laterally as far as I comfortably can. I do both legs as well though I'm careful with my left one due to injuries.
- I then get on all fours with the band, again, in the same place. I kick outward with one leg and return it. I do both legs here
- In same position, I instead kick backward and straighten the leg. Both legs once more
I do about 20 reps each leg on each exercise with the heaviest band, so that may be why the progress is so fast. I couple them with my physical therapy exercises that I have to do for surgery. I do 2 days on, 1 day off so the muscle can recover.
Also, if anybody who knows better than I can suggest more exercises, please do. I want to have hips.
Oh, I also am starting up a regimen with my Total Gym here soon with a ton of exercises with that. Just gotta find space to set it up again. Has a ton of leg, hips, and ass exercises that I want to take advantage of as well. My set even came with a workout routine in the box perfect for this purpose. So hopefully that does even more.
hard for me to imagine from text, you're on your side, would hip-thrusts be different enough you think? could they work?
so i'm imagining, have your back on an elevated surface (couch, bench, etc.) barbell across your hips and hold onto it with your hands, from a relaxed position thrust up so your back, spine, and legs make a 90° angle with your knee
i've see folks use dumbells and kettlebells, the weighted balls too, i think the benefit is you can use a ton of weight and progress in a straightforward way (increase weight, improve form)
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
How long have you been on HRT? What's your routine? I am also doing weightlifting for my ass and legs. It's been like 3x a week with squats, deads, hip thrusts, leg presses then a bunch of leg machine stuff. Trying to keep it to mid-heavy weight workouts (300lbs on deads for 5x5, 450 pounds on the leg press for 3x10, 185 for squats for sets of 8, 185 for hip thrusts for 3x10) and it's also working pretty well for me too. I've been going for about 2 months now but I am not getting the hourglass shape, just a fatter ass which is nice but I want hipssss
18 months now. I could just be getting the honeyed words from my loved ones, so who knows.
Been having a rough time of it lately.
My brain doesnt work good; i cant fulfill the prerequisites for existence in this world. Im trying to find a job and housing, but it just doesnt work in my brain.
And how can i live with other people? "Hi potential roomie, i would love to live with you! Oh and btw i might get random intense mood swings, see things once in a while and then insist we have no standing water in the house cause thats how she gets in and I dont want to experience her right now, but wait an hour and everything will be fine again. etc. etc." like who tf wants to live with a crazy person whose only tangentially connected to reality?
And even beyond that, my brain doesnt work right. I know I have to do things, but i cant do them. Whether fun things or not, i think about them constantly, feeling terrible im not doing them, and still dont do them. I just dont function. I have housing until the end of march, but after that im not sure what will happen. I was confident I could find somewhere to live by then, but the people in my life are saying ive already failed at it, and tbh theyre not wrong. Im just not capable. It took me 1½ months to fix my social security and drivers license. It should have taken a week, max. Idk, im just kinda done trying. I try and I fail, if i dont try i fail, all roads lead to rome.
Anyway, idk how thats related to being trans, aside from that im trans.
Besides all that I have some friends who are nice, they keep me sane. Gonna hopefully expand my social circle a bit this week, but might crash out at the last second cause of the aforementioned brain not working right.
I hope everyone else is having a better time of things. Sorry for bringing everything down 😓
You know, being trans really sucks a lot of the time, but today I am happy and proud to be trans. HRT is doing its magic, I've been loosing weight, I'm standing up for myself more and demanding people use my actual name, and slowly day by day becoming more and more comfortable being me.
rant/dysphoria
I hate chuds so much. In school, I have to listen to both the students and the teachers spew out the most vile garbage I have ever heard in my entire life. But whenever I try to push back against their bullshit I’m the weird one, the one that’s unhinged, every single god damn time, the students are flabbergasted and flustered whenever I even try to introduce one iota of human empathy into anything at all. The teachers are even worse, they just cut me off and try to insert their own dog shit, fascistic ideology into what I have said, trying to shame away the empathy from me. It makes bash my head into a wall. It’s so exhausting to hear everyone's bullshit 24/7. All of this is not helped at all by all the dysphoria i have built up. My voice is disgusting, my body revolting, my legs look like gorilla legs, mu arm hair is awful, my hair is still short, looking at myself in the mirror makes me want to vomit. And i definitely don't have anyone irl to talk to or process this shit with. I cant talk to anyone at all around me, not honestly. All this makes me feel like im dying, I wish I could cry, but I can't, and im so sad and so tired and i know i cant do a single god damn thing about it. I don't know how much longer I can live this way, not long.
IDK why i decided to post this, i guess I just need to vent to some one.
Hang in there, I know its corny but https://youtu.be/5ehf9udAhng this always reminds me why its worth fighting.
Edit: the reason I am a communist today is because years ago one of my best friends asked me how many people capitalism had killed after I regurgitated Peterson talking points at her. It took me years to come around but I am so glad someone was in my life challenging my perspectives.
I found a YouTube link in your comment. Here are links to the same video on alternative frontends that protect your privacy:
I came out to one of my best friends this evening. We're neighbors and he walks around the neighborhood every night. He's always asking me to join "walkin club" so I took him up on the offer tonight as an excuse to tell him. I still waited until the very end because I was anxious. But I was worried about nothing because he was fine with it. Absolutely a non-issue.
