CW internalized transphobia, gender dysphoria
To be clear, I understand there’s no cutoff on the age of transition. But I swear to god I keep coming across this talking point made in the worst way possible. They’re trying to reassure young people who are insecure about having gone through their first puberty already but they’ll say some shit like, “I didn’t start transitioning until I was 24 and it still turned out well for me.” And you look at their before pictures and they were conventionally attractive and had other advantages like being transfemme with minimal natural body hair growth. Like goddamn that is not reassuring.
It truly is never too old to transition. I started transitioning at 33. My egg didn’t crack until 32. Unfortunately, I do not have a very strong sense of introspection, so I just let all the dysphoria I was feeling over the years be passed off as depression. Also, where I lived, transitioning was an unheard of thing andI knew literally zero people who even questioned their gender while I was growing up, therefore never really having that spark lit. To put it in perspective, I graduated in a high school of almost 2k people in it. At the end of the day I’m not a senior, but I’m definitely not young either. And prior to transition, I was a scruff looking motherfucker. I am not certain if I was ever conventionally “handsome”, but I most certainly never did have a femme body build. I’m unfortunately built large and had a ton of hair prior to all this. I do pass. Am I good looking? Idk. I couldn’t say. But I don’t get misgendered anymore. So I guess that counts for something. This is all 18 months into HRT and with a great deal of effort on my part for voice training, changing wardrobe, changing my mannerisms, learning makeup, and just trying my damnedest to not give a fuck about other people.
Look, you’re honestly just get hyper transfixed on these people. In the end, you need to evaluate for yourself if you think this is the right path for yourself. And let me tell you, I have quite a few not young friends that have gone from extremely male looking to very femme looking through the years of their HRT. The stuff is quite frankly a fucking miracle. And there is a lot to be done outside of just taking the HRT. Unfortunately, HRT itself doesn’t exactly fix everything. You’ve gotta put work in in some aspects to help things. But it can truly bring you places.
If you need help regarding all of this, please feel free to DM me and I can attempt to help you dissolve such thoughts. I’d be more than happy to attempt to assist you.