how can i tell if im actually non binary or if im just stepping outside the binary as a coping mechanism for impostor syndrome/dysphoria? i've been too chronically ill (long covid) and depressed to really take care of myself lately and i haven't really been able to see her in the mirror in what feels like months. and i felt like i was getting used to my chosen name but now it almost feels grating. but i dont know if that's because it's a reminder of the healthy girl i thought i was becoming pre-transition or if im just not a woman. idk im 20 months into HRT and 15 months into long covid and i felt so sure of myself before i got sick. but it seems like this sickness has made a huge mess of my identity and idk how to fix it
cw: dysphoria, chronic illness
how can i tell if im actually non binary or if im just stepping outside the binary as a coping mechanism for impostor syndrome/dysphoria? i've been too chronically ill (long covid) and depressed to really take care of myself lately and i haven't really been able to see her in the mirror in what feels like months. and i felt like i was getting used to my chosen name but now it almost feels grating. but i dont know if that's because it's a reminder of the healthy girl i thought i was becoming pre-transition or if im just not a woman. idk im 20 months into HRT and 15 months into long covid and i felt so sure of myself before i got sick. but it seems like this sickness has made a huge mess of my identity and idk how to fix it