autocorrect keeps wanting to make it "envy," which isn't entirely wrong
How did you figure out you were enby?
I've come to realize that my super-femme presentation is a form of masking, and I'm trying to figure out where I actually fall in the spectrum of gender.
So yeah, how did you figure out you weren't "gender" and were actually enby?
Does just thinking that maybe I'm not either mean that probably I'm not either? Is the state of being unsure and kinda in-between where you identify or what?
i'm honestly not entirely sure what I was feeling at that moment (>10 years is a long time), but as for "none or both or what", it's sorta like a mix between man, woman, and neither.
but, like, most stuff is already stereotyped into the gender binary, so it's kinda hard to carve my own niche. I've found, over the years, that "not caring" (perhaps a poor choice of phrasing) is my way of looking at it. Oh, liking trains is male coded? lol, who cares. Dresses are a girl thing? Perfect train attire. I just do whatever I feel like, trying to make a conscious choice not to let the gender binary affect what I do or think.
Trans Liberation: Beyond Pink or Blue has also been pretty foundational in my opinions on my gender. I'm very much happy I'm not stuck with an "M-or-F box", nowadays most places have a "prefer not to say" or "x".