Why could almost all of this have been written by me the anxiety spiral when no script, not knowing how to respond, this is me all the fucking time. I Relate.

How horrible is it that I disassociate from an internet forum and just enter lurker mode again.

Hey I've done it too, I'm just back from a many weeks long break from bear website. It's goddamn strenuous sometimes... I love this place and talking here, but I also second and third guess what I say like twenty times a day. Anxiety