I found it helped me finally feel like I was going in the right direction.

I have lots of regret knowing for such a long time I was trans but taking so long to transition. Plus all the time with knowing but not doing much to help myself etc.

It can be difficult even now after almost a decade transitioned.

I did find myself having more inward growth as in understanding more about myself from being around trans people and trans spaces and finally finding places where I can relate to some peoples experiences too.

I still feel alienated in some regards too but I know my experience hasn't been exactly a happy, easy nor a typically normal one either.

It certainly isn't easy, I hope you find some happiness at some point.