Yeah, this is one my therapist has been working on with me for the past few weeks. It's crazy looking back at my last relationship how hard I align with her paper. One that caught us both off guard was "Accepting sex as a substitute for love". This is one that I never really had an issue with, but I have like an addiction to positive physical affection such as getting headpats, being held, handholding, ect. There were so many times that I let my ex get away with really harmful shit by just snuggling with me very closely afterwards. I'd often let her treat me like a man during sex because there was a certain way she'd hold me that she'd only do after we had sex and it was my absolute favorite.

I'm really struggling with craving that physical intimacy again even though I know I'm not in a position to connect with someone enough for it to be real intimacy. Sorry for the rant, just kinda wanted to pop off a little bit