I'm still spiraling downward and I have no idea how to turn it around. My work is eroding what little ability I have to give a shit and is actively pushing me to bad habits again. I hate what I do but don't have an education to do anything else. Nothing I used to do is fun anymore and hasn't been for months now. I no longer have any hobbies besides doom-scrolling. I bought the new monster hunter game, played ~20 minutes and gave up because it doesn't feel worth the effort.