Greetings comrades and welcome to your mental health thread. Today we also have a picture of a majestic dog. How is everyone doing?
I think my boyfriend is gonna break up with me, or make me breakup with him.
we've been long distance for well over a year at this point with no in-person contact. his texts/calls have been getting more and more infrequent. I know he's busy, but it's frustrating. He just moved from the mainland of Spain to one of the islands, so he's even more distant. I have been trying to figure out how to get a job in Spain, but it's really hard, and will be even harder if he's not on the mainland.
I would be sad if we broke up, but i'd rather it sooner than later because i don't want a bunch of resentment to build up and ruin everything.
Listen jack, life is garbage. I was reading my diary entries from this time a year ago. I'm in the same place I was then except worse. It's amazing how much your life can go to shit in just a year. None of it is even my fault, I'm doing all the shit you're supposed to do. :doomer:
Like shit. I feel like shit. My whole body hurts and I'm gonna die alone.
Read this CBT book for ADHD and had the most productive week of the past 5 years. :stalin-feels-good:
Till chapter 7 is the main thing, after that is only extra but still useful stuff imo.
I suggest not to get bogged down reading and re-reading each chapter till you internalise it but instead go thru chapters 1-7 not too deeply first and then do a second pass(and maybe a third ymmv) while paying more attention.
I'm steadily becoming the basic suburban dad I never wanted to be, so not great. Depressed about it even though that's who my dad and 95% of my friends dads were.
I guess it just feels like I'm gonna work, cut my grass, and cook dinner on repeat until I die and I don't like it.
I'm still spiraling downward and I have no idea how to turn it around. My work is eroding what little ability I have to give a shit and is actively pushing me to bad habits again. I hate what I do but don't have an education to do anything else. Nothing I used to do is fun anymore and hasn't been for months now. I no longer have any hobbies besides doom-scrolling. I bought the new monster hunter game, played ~20 minutes and gave up because it doesn't feel worth the effort.
Mostly doing pretty smoothly. The biggest worries I have right now are about stuff that's outside the scope of my existence.
Not completely on top of everything one would consider standard adult obligations, but gonna get to some of those this evening. Still have stable health, finances, and social environment.
Called a friend yesterday I hadn't heard from in a while. Felt good. I have space to talk or listen or shoot the shit if anyone needs an audience or connection of some sort.
