Been there. Wish I had advice, but even if I'd truly risen past that part of my life, we live during a uniquely insane period of history. Just have sympathy. Don't be too hard on yourself; the whole standard of "go to a good college, get a job, strike it out on your own, and create a life for yourself" shit hardly applies to anyone anymore, if it ever did. You're not a failure; make life work however you can and try to separate out other people's idealized visions of what a worthwhile life is supposed to be.