I'll give you a hint: my first porn site was zappos

That evolved into crossdressing but I was too scared to actually try so I basically fell in love with forced fem and

Which led to years of shame and insecurity until I was finally able to rationalize my fetishes as a repressed gender identity issue, and I'm pretty sure it was that because I've been out for a few months now and I've literally never been happier in my entire life. I consume way less porn now and I'm literally turned off by being called a "s***y boy" because I used to really like the humiliation (hmmm maybe my subconscious was trying to tell me something) but now instead of feeling this weird mix of humiliation and validation from being called a girl it's just purely validating. Isn't that neat?

Also I think chasity gives me slight euphoria because I was extremely into that for kink reasons but now I just love to wear one because my dick and I aren't on the best terms. Like I love her and she's cute but I'm sorry I just feel so bad when I use her to orgasm so I'd rather keep her locked away like a princess in a tower 👸 okay sorry this is getting kinda out of hand lol :panting: but it's been so helpful to view it through a lens of euphoria/dysphoria instead of just unrelenting shame and confusion

Likewise finally acknowledging that all the trans/forced fem erotica I read were basically allegories of the trajectory I took has been really cool.