Once I was old enough for people to start referring to me as a woman, it always felt incorrect, but I wasn’t sure why. I considered that it might be internalized misogyny, but that wasn’t it. I also had terrible dread about the fact that I could get pregnant, which I now recognize as dysphoria. (this capability has since been surgically removed )

As a separate realization, I found out that I really enjoy it when people are unsure how to gender me.

Eventually, I came across some video essays by nonbinary people. When I heard someone say they didn’t feel like a man or a woman, they just feel like themself, that’s when I knew I was nonbinary because that’s how I feel too.