I never don't feel weird about this. Granted that I was like fifteen years old when I started making the moves to transition, I was never once scared or worried or even unsure about it. Once my autistic ass found out that you could actually change your gender and use bioidentical hormones to alter your body, my solution was to start yelling at people about how I was gonna do it. I just went with my gut instinct. No thoughts, head empty: angry trans vibes only. Despite being basically a stupid kid with no capacity for deep critical thought, it's the most right choice I've ever made for myself. I would have suffered and died otherwise. Kid me was angry and willful and stubborn and refused not to pump herself full of hormones, and that bitch was right on the fucking money.