hey, I've had the same mix at the same time and it was the worst time in my life. I wish I had more insight for you, except that it got better after a few months. During that time, I could make myself feel a little better by going outside and looking at the forms of trees or waves on a lake shore, but most days even that was pretty hard. Trees in particular were good, taking time to look at each one and see how it grew, how it was dying or thriving or found a little hole in the canopy for its light. Trying to get little tasks done is good, cleaning and especially cooking - something about cooking can get you out of it for a bit, especially if you can cook for someone else. Don't feel bad about the artistic expression thing or that you aren't being productive. It's okay to just be. We need you here, and you'll probably never feel this bad again.