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hey comrade I know it's tough out there. I have ADHD and depression too (though my depression has been getting a bit better recently.) Try going for a walk to something, go look at some flowers or a weird looking building. Try to find some beauty that still exists in this ugly world. With my adhd I love just wandering around and going where ever my mind takes me. It isn't a panacea that will fix everything, but it makes me feel a little better and lifts the fog a bit.
All of capitalism is a lie
You are already expressing yourself artistically (I enjoyed seeing the metaphor) and have expressed drive and self-criticism. This is already incredibly positive development!
Of course you stayed inside and looked at the screens. This is how people work now, just be glad it’s not a television.
This is how dopaminergic systems function, in contradictions.
What you can do is quite obvious: negate what capitalism said about everything and trust intuition. You should be going outside more, you should be moving more, you should be happier, you will be happier, the phones are bad, you shouldn’t feel bad for using the phone, you were always a good artist and should have done more art (but that was always just self-expression and had no particular definition)
Nobody here should feel they’re going to live much longer. You’re not wrong. That’s a rational conclusion. It’s quite obvious stuff is coming to kill many of us (hi fellow humans) unless humanity can be radically transformed, quickly, through contradictions, perhaps using truth and some sort of global information network and the people addicted to it?
It’s very easy to pull people out of a psyop when everybody thinks everyone else is in one and you tell them they were all right, and then give them the actual socialist truth plainly and in full view of their Gods.
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One thing that has always helped me cope is to remember, "This is not your life forever." Bad times pass. Right now you just need to remind yourself of that. You are loved and heard. You may not believe it, but you are, in this very moment, loved beyond all measure. Please, friend, comrade, reach out for help if you need to. There is nothing weak in wanting to survive. I believe you truly do want to live, since you reached out to us. Do whatever it takes: call a helpline (1-800-273-8255, for the national suicide prevention hotline), get out of your house and take a brief walk around your neighborhood or park, listen to your favorite album, just anything to hold onto. You're going to make it, I promise.
Not feeling loved is a symptom. I don't know about your life, but you're loved at least by the people here who read your post, and probably way more people than you could imagine irl. Have you felt love for other people before? People feel the same way about you. There's no one ever who has actually been completely unloved. There are people who love Ted Cruz. It's probably easier for you to imagine people loving Ted Cruz than it is to imagine people loving you, and that's a symptom. People feel solidarity with you too, not just love.
Feel you big time - better times are ahead friend.
If you're like me I just pick something small near me and clean it (or organize it). Sometimes it starts a chain reaction of feeling productive.
I'm with you.
Are you getting any kind of treatment/drugs? Are you eating OK?
It's probably impossible for you to take much care of yourself right now, but maybe you know someone who could help you out with making appointments or making food or helping you clean or whatever you need help with right now.
You can't express yourself artistically right now, but this time still isn't being wasted. You're always building up a bank of things to draw from once you are able to express yourself artistically. Suffering like this is also good for honing your empathy, ime. It would be better if you could express yourself artistically right now, but you're always improving, even if it's not in the ways you wanted to be improving right now.
As much as I'd like to go back to a time when my brain wasn't mush, I have a lot better idea now about what's important and I would have been wasting my non-mushy brain on stupid stuff anyway.
You will probably feel way way way better at some point, be crying with joy, etc., but it's impossible to see that or believe it right now. It happens, though. It can happen on its own for some people, or with treatment for other people. Depression and ADHD drugs and other treatments are always being worked on. Stuff that can help you might already exist, or it will be developed soon.
I feel like a hypocrite for saying this when I feel the worst I've ever felt, but I remember how I've felt during more lucid moments and I've seen it work out for lots of other people.
Odds are that you will end up coming out of it OK and with a better perspective than before. Please don't give up yet. We need as many good people as possible.
As someone with depression, I fully know what you're living through. If anything, there's hope for you and us in general. Psychedelic drugs have been shown to drastically improve one's life with very little effort. There are legal alternatives to LSD, that benefit from a lack of reglementation, and thus can be ordered (but not consumed, we are all good citizens here) freely. You'll need to respect ALL safety measures and do your research before. If you got any questions rachel, please pm.
I see you're a woman of culture. Well then, I'd advise to spend your day planning a trip to the nature, to find a nice spot under the stars, and to simply let go for a few hours with some nice music. I know exactly where to get some myself, so might post my experiences in a few weeks.
I have times like that to. When I spiral it also feels like the only time I see things clearly. For me at least that tends to pass eventually and always seems untrue in hindsight until the next spiral. While it's happening i just try to hold onto the thought that I'm sane while functional and insane while spiraling, not the other way around. I wish I had something more helpful to offer. If I find something I'll let you know.
The world pours so much stimulation upon us that us people with ADHD have to pull ourselves away from it. There's always another link vying for our attention, until the next thing we know the day is gone and we have nothing to show for it.
Meanwhile, the things in life that really matter (making friends, building something) take more and more effort, that we just can't sustain.
But then you find people who understand what you bring to the world, and respect your unique mind and don't ask for any more than you can give. It's worth the effort to find them.
hey, I've had the same mix at the same time and it was the worst time in my life. I wish I had more insight for you, except that it got better after a few months. During that time, I could make myself feel a little better by going outside and looking at the forms of trees or waves on a lake shore, but most days even that was pretty hard. Trees in particular were good, taking time to look at each one and see how it grew, how it was dying or thriving or found a little hole in the canopy for its light. Trying to get little tasks done is good, cleaning and especially cooking - something about cooking can get you out of it for a bit, especially if you can cook for someone else. Don't feel bad about the artistic expression thing or that you aren't being productive. It's okay to just be. We need you here, and you'll probably never feel this bad again.
Hey, I'm struggling with ADHD and depression too. It's awful. I hope things get better. Right now just try to make it through each day.
