I'm making this on my alt because I don't want to doxx my original account too much. I've been dealing with intrusive thoughts and borderline schizophrenic episodes for the last few years, and obsessed fear has left me with no options.
My parents issued an ultimatum to me to 'get over it' or be forced to leave, and while I can try and resist/hide the obsessive thought spirals at least temporarily I always know they come back.
I don't think I even want to stay at this point, considering how hostile they get whenever I bring up my fears. It's also obviously toxic of me to stay because I've been forcing them to basically deal with my fears for me, and I'm not surprised they got sick of it.
Does anyone know where I could stay or what I could do? I apparently still have access to most of my funds but the amount of money I have is probably about 300~ dollars. I don't even know if I could afford an apartment or somewhere to stay.
Should I just get a sleeping bag and some wipes at a store or something? I don't know. I don't know where to put this, or what community it fits in, I'm sorry if it's too out of place.
edit: we've managed to make an agreement for me to move to college dorms. Situation defused, I guess :shrug-outta-hecks: sorry everyone for this massive false alarm.
Have you tried medication for schizophrenia or psychosis before? My friend has been on meds for schizophrenia for 20+ years. They work for a lot of people.
What is the ultimatum? Will they allow you to seek treatment?
If not, the options really depend on what state/country you live in.
Seconding meds. On their own, lessened symptoms a bit, but that bit got me breathing room to address the rest with cbt and lifestyle changes.
Sounds like your in college, which means they may be able to provide some amount of psych or therapy resources, cheaper and easier that could be found in the rest of the system.
Have you sought treatment for this? Could doing so keep the door open/roof overhead for you?
sleeping rough is uh not fun. have your folks given you a time frame or is it like, tonight?
I have, yeah. I'm not sure what's going on now but it seems to have mostly defused, I should be able to hold out until I move to college.
Comrade, I am extremely happy it worked out for you. Never feel bad for asking for help tho, is all I can say. I'd rather you ask one time too many than one time fewer than you needed :meow-hug:
Don't worry about the false alarm, I'm very glad your situation isn't what you feared. What I can chip in is that living on the streets is not good for mental health. There's studies about the constant ear damage of living near busy roadways where the decibels are enough to start hearing degradation.
what state/country do you live in could effect the assistance available to you.
so if youve tried the medical route and nothing worked, i highly suggest sleep meds. helps me with my problems a great deal despite none of the meds working for my ptsd and so on
