There's a very specific type of dread I feel sometimes at growing up and living in such an unspeakably evil place, knowing all the ways its tendrils have intimately shaped the minds of everyone around me (and my own if I'm being honest with myself). Sort of like a dissociative, hate-filled awe and terror.

Idk, let's just say that seeing the things most Americans believe makes me think I'm right to want to interact with the world around me as little as possible. I know that's an incorrect/toxic way of looking at shit but it's the mood a lot of the time.