Basically title. A ton of things in life being going badly. Aside from well...the outside world, life’s just been a slog. Broke up with my significant other, lost a family member, and I got into an argument with a sibling about how I need to moderate my political views and not be so outspoken on things (just shut up and don’t try to change things). Been getting me down and I feel myself falling into depression. Just needed to get that out and I’m just wondering: How do y’all make it through these days?

  • Awoo [she/her]
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    4 years ago

    My dad is currently dying of cancer, I've had to watch him slowly deteriorate for months. Despite the fact that we have a terrible relationship I still feel... Angry. Deeply angry. He's a man that has worked and done pretty much nothing but work his whole life. All he has to show for it is some property that really doesn't matter. His time should have been spent on him and things that really matter to him, not on filling someone else's pockets with millions.

    I don't think I will ever be exhausted. I don't think this experience and the rage I have over this will ever go away. I want to fix it, even for a man I really do not like. I look at him and the pain of people around him and it's just not fair, it's not right, and I will absolutely spend my entire life working to change it.

    If I ever need to I will just tap into this emotion again forever.

    I'm sorry this doesn't really help you if you don't have some sort of similar experience to draw from but for me it's an almost limitless pool that I can dip into.

    • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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      4 years ago

      Oh damn I’m so sorry to hear that. I hope that in your anger you can find peace, comrade.

      • Awoo [she/her]
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        4 years ago

        A trip to any beach is usually good for that. Watching and listening to the tide feels a world apart from everything else. I end up using it as a reminder of exactly what I fight for though, for people to be able to do that more.

        • qublic69 [none/use name]
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          4 years ago

          I end up using it as a reminder of exactly what I fight for

          yeah that's the most important part for me, knowing that there is a life worth fighting for.

        • Healthcare_pls [he/him]
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          4 years ago

          Coincidentally I’m actually going to the beach with the fam. Will suck up all the sea air I can and post it at you

          • Awoo [she/her]
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            4 years ago

            Make sure you get 5 minutes alone to just absorb some of that sweet Sonder you can get from it. I get this feeling in a few places, big views of cities, by the ocean, bonfires/campfires, fireworks, etc. I think it's very important.