So I got dumped in 2014. I discovered Bill Burr's You People Are All The Same standup routine, and for my broken hearted self then, it spoke to me. For those of you don't know, Burr jokes about women unable to have a rational argument, and using cheap debate tricks and emotional ploys to win arguments with men. Sorry, but the place I was in wasn't great. My thinking towards Burr in early 2015 was "OMG this guy is funny", late 2015 was "this is funny, but problematic", then in 2016 "OMG this guy is a fascist".
Another time I randomly found a dating app and profile on a girlfriend's phone when I was trying to connect her phone to the smart TV. There was a 45 minute space of time where I channeled all the hurt I ever felt in my past, and I started to think "yes all women are inherently selfish and deceitful". For that time, I was quite literally open to red-pill ideology. Thankfully I shook out of it. Having a support network to whinge about my pain helped too.
One bazillion percent, the dudes in my life have been worse than the women. Long term misogyny seems impossible.
I didn’t have a moment that pushed me into misogyny but when I was younger I had a good deal of entitlement towards partners that I guess came from toxic masculinity and being socialized as a male or whatever idk I regret a lot of that. I grew out of it slowly but I treated some of my early partners in ways I’m not particularly proud of.
NGL, I had that at times in my past too. Anyhow, do do better, but don't feel too awful as lots of us have this issue. The best and most mature thing to do it to admit it, so kudos to you.
I think thinking in terms of good and bad people stops you improving yourself. If you think of anyone who has sexist or racist ideas as inherently bad then you will be very resistant to having any sexist or racist ideas you have challenged and will never get better.
there are no good people or bad people there are bad things to do think and say