So I got dumped in 2014. I discovered Bill Burr's You People Are All The Same standup routine, and for my broken hearted self then, it spoke to me. For those of you don't know, Burr jokes about women unable to have a rational argument, and using cheap debate tricks and emotional ploys to win arguments with men. Sorry, but the place I was in wasn't great. My thinking towards Burr in early 2015 was "OMG this guy is funny", late 2015 was "this is funny, but problematic", then in 2016 "OMG this guy is a fascist".
Another time I randomly found a dating app and profile on a girlfriend's phone when I was trying to connect her phone to the smart TV. There was a 45 minute space of time where I channeled all the hurt I ever felt in my past, and I started to think "yes all women are inherently selfish and deceitful". For that time, I was quite literally open to red-pill ideology. Thankfully I shook out of it. Having a support network to whinge about my pain helped too.
One bazillion percent, the dudes in my life have been worse than the women. Long term misogyny seems impossible.
i was 18 and highschool failed to socialize me so i was reading like, rebecca watson's blog at the same time as starting to look at PUA shit (and not really buying it but who knows maybe years of that would've changed things) but mostly i was just sad for myself and mad that the world wasn't better so women would feel comfortable approaching or i couldn't just go "hey wanna hook up" during the day on the way out of class with the mutual expectation of "no" being taken for an answer.
fuck neurotypical men. you guys fucking ruined everything.
Ya I struggled hard with dating early on. Also I feel like the Western expectation of being in a relationship at 16 and it filling all your emotional needs is very damaging. Sorry to stereotype something I know nothing about, but I know some immigrant families where the son is in his late twenties, living with parents, and everyone seems OK with the situation.
it's still a struggle years later, or i assume it would be, covid, light disability, and unemployment keeping me from having any prospects. hookup apps seem like they'd be bad for my mental health so there's really nothing I can do in this shithole and nothing i can do about leaving.
People seem to like [thing i won't share on here on this account] that I made so that's good i guess. Doesn't lick my genitals or hold me at night, but i know better than to go down some manosphere pit.