If so, tell me about it.
Most intense trip I ever had was from smoking DMT. I had tried shrooms and acid before and that was cool and all, but this was entirely different. As soon as I exhaled I could feel it coming on. I looked at my phone to see what time it was and everything on the screen immediately turned to actual hieroglyphics in front of my eyes. As if my brain could no longer understand written symbols.
This shit was INTENSE. First, the room became cartoonified, or almost like cel-shading in a video game. Literally every time I blinked the room would change just a little and I had to look around to spot the difference and as soon as I did, it changed again in a flash. This went on for idk how long, felt like forever.
There was this overwhelming feeling that this wasn’t just some chemicals in my brain but that I had stumbled onto something I wasn’t supposed to see and was being messed with by some kind of trickster god trying to fuck with me for coming into their dimension. But also maybe trying to teach me something?
I sat and looked into the mirror and watched the bones move around in my face as I turned into a thousand different people who looked nothing like me, but my eyes always stayed the same, just staring back at me from an unrecognizable face.
And then as suddenly as it started, it was over and I’m just lying there thinking these same thoughts over and over, first: “hoooly shit” but then “we’re all connected” “life is worth living” but also “I don’t think I’m afraid of dying anymore”
This was over two years ago and I still remember it vividly, as if it was just yesterday.
I highly recommend it, just be safe.
Pro-tip: There are recordings of shamanic songs used in ayahuasca ceremonies called Icaros you can find online that are supposed to gently guide you through the trip. The calm repetitive beat made all the difference.
Did you fundamentally change the course of your life afterwards?
I've often read about people using DMT that they did that, and it actually scared me from trying it.
I don't really know how to really explain it but I was on DMT and I saw what I can only describe as "the eye of God" and it saw me. Like I know for sure that an insanely powerful presence looked right at me. It honestly scared me, not that it was hostile it was just so powerful and I'd caught it's attention. It's been like five or six years since that trip and I still remember it perfectly. I know I sound like one of old crazy burnouts but I fully believe what I saw and felt was something real.
Other then that I've seen a ton of super pretty lights.
Lol I wasn't listening to tool that trip but I have before, that was an intensely pleasurable experience.
like a truly crazy visual or hallucination? no.
but during a stupid period of my young life, i tried an eighth of shrooms and another time i did a ten strip of acid. so if ego death is cool, i've seen it. i literally forgot who i was, i didnt even know that time existed. i was a history major in college, and i remember when I was coming out of the trip i was reminding myself of simple things that definitely existed.
I'm done with psychs for the foreseeable future but I always loved watching my ego reconstruct itself. it's so interesting to see what parts you latch back onto first
i mostly stopped because it just wasnt doing much anymore. occasionally ill be at a music festival and someone will give me a hit and im like uhhhh i didnt feel anything. and i dont feel like doing 4 just to feel something.
Dysphoria went poof and I found myself beautiful and in my element for like an hour
Weird feeling
MDMA
the deeper cerebral/conceptual shifts in perception are the cooler part, but besides intense closed eye visuals, the visual thing i remember most is one time i took some dried psilocyben cubensis (shrooms) late at night and fell asleep before they onset. i woke up tripping from a dream, and i remember closing/reopening my eyes was like a veil of sparkles being pulled away from my field of vision.... like reality was visually exploding into existence every time i opened my eyes.
one of the characteristics i appreciate about having done psychedelics is that it made me more accepting of both what i see without being too attached to what i think i am seeing. for example, sometimes i'll catch a glimpse of something in my periphery, and when i look over it's different. i think before i got into psychedelics i would have been disturbed by that phenomenon, like i was going "crazy". now i just sort of laugh it off as a curiosity of visual perception and patterned thinking..... i am amused by the way my brain tried to fill in the gaps. i think it's made me more perceptive in general, and also in visual arts. like i am more comfortable "playing" in that space between what something objectively looks like and what i see when i remember glancing at it.
Not seeing actual hallucinations was one of the big downers of me finally getting to try hallucinogens. Sure, I saw patterns and things pulsed and whatnot. But I never actually saw something that wasn't there. Big disappointment.
When I took shrooms for the first time I was in the middle of the forest (on federal land :fidel-cool: ) alone (worked out for me but not necessarily good idea). there was this kind of supernatural spiral which guided me to crawl through this tiny gap in the wall of vegetation (maybe eight inches tall, I had to take my backpack off.) But it led me to a truly massive patch of chanterelles which were absolutely delicious. Idk how to explain that tbh
once I was on MDMA and shrooms and I took a big ketamine bump and accidentally k-hole'd myself. It's hard to explain but I spent the next 20 minutes as a cereal box in a box factory being screenprinted until I snapped back
Yeah I saw cool shit. It kinda defies explanation though. Everyone talks about they saw this or that or felt this or that. But its deeper than that, you aren't watching the world like tv, its all-sensory and projected out from your brain and body. I'm seeing cool shit maybe, but also the act of seeing is fundamentally changed. So how can it be explained just as a vision?
This is reminding me of how every time psychadelics made me beautifully aware of the inside of my skin. Listening and tasting inside every gurgling stomach sound. Reach into your belly button and twist your finger in your intestines. Open up your rib cage and wrap your hand gently around your heart to feel it beating. Oh, it's good to be alive!
I went to the meat dimension, where we are all part of the same cosmic meat, like a single great body where each of us is a muscle fiber. Kinda lost myself in it for a few hours.
LSD.
once I took shrooms in a park and it looked like the earth was breathing. like the ground under our feet was literally heaving like the chest of someone who's breathing deeply. it was really beautiful
Death to America
this is the one i love - you know you're on the way up when the world breathes with you.
the walls in the toilet, the grass you walk on, trees in the distance. it's such a great feeling
pulsations along with music, all the music I've ever heard, It was fucking awesome
