I'm suicidally depressed and I think I have paranoia. Not gonna do anything about it though bc therapy is a scam and so are drugs. Plus dying isn't so bad, it can't be worse than working for a living
So sorry to hear it. I’ve had my battles with depression too. And holy shit antidepressants. I gained 30 lbs and got vertigo so bad that I fell out of chairs.
That said, my little brother killed himself 19 years ago, and I can tell you that it still wrecks our family every day. Suicide doesn’t solve anything.
It took me a long time but eventually I found a good therapist to work with and things got better for me. There’s lots of purpose to be found in life. The fucking capitalist pigs do all they can to take it from us. Fight back, make things better for yourself and others, and don’t let the pigs win.
Call a help line if you feel like hurting yourself, and you can always reach out here if you need to talk. There are lots of comrades here who have faced down the same dark shit you’re feeling.
You are strong and can do this. I send you solidarity and love.
Any advice on finding a place to get it? I'm in Illinois, don't have friends and don't go to college. Have tried everything including shock therapy for depression.
Unfortunately no. I've always just had friends who can hook me up. It can be hard to find generally speaking. The good news is psilocybin has been granted breakthrough status by the FDA and will begin stage 3 clinical trials next year. I'm very hopeful it will be unscheduled and more widely available in the near future.
For sure general tips, try to dose no more often than every other day - less if you can. I dose every 3rd day myself, but I know some people who do just fine dosing as little as once a week. Get yourself a micro-gram scale, and start super small - like 0.05 grams. You want to get it to the point where you can just barely notice a difference. Usually the sweet spot is around 0.08-0.11 grams but it varies with the potency of your shrooms. The way I know I have the right dose is that I don't actually experience any active effects, but it feels like the whole world is just a little bit brighter. It's as if the day was overcast, and all of a sudden the sun breaks through the clouds and you see everything in more vivid color.
This is an excellent reason to not own one.
How are you doing these days?
I'm suicidally depressed and I think I have paranoia. Not gonna do anything about it though bc therapy is a scam and so are drugs. Plus dying isn't so bad, it can't be worse than working for a living
So sorry to hear it. I’ve had my battles with depression too. And holy shit antidepressants. I gained 30 lbs and got vertigo so bad that I fell out of chairs.
That said, my little brother killed himself 19 years ago, and I can tell you that it still wrecks our family every day. Suicide doesn’t solve anything.
It took me a long time but eventually I found a good therapist to work with and things got better for me. There’s lots of purpose to be found in life. The fucking capitalist pigs do all they can to take it from us. Fight back, make things better for yourself and others, and don’t let the pigs win.
Call a help line if you feel like hurting yourself, and you can always reach out here if you need to talk. There are lots of comrades here who have faced down the same dark shit you’re feeling.
You are strong and can do this. I send you solidarity and love.
I recommend trying micro-dosing of psilocybin. Does wonders for my MDD and PTSD. A literal life saver in my case.
Any advice on finding a place to get it? I'm in Illinois, don't have friends and don't go to college. Have tried everything including shock therapy for depression.
Unfortunately no. I've always just had friends who can hook me up. It can be hard to find generally speaking. The good news is psilocybin has been granted breakthrough status by the FDA and will begin stage 3 clinical trials next year. I'm very hopeful it will be unscheduled and more widely available in the near future.
Yeah I do shrooms every once in a while and it makes me feel great. I should look into micro dosing tbh
For sure general tips, try to dose no more often than every other day - less if you can. I dose every 3rd day myself, but I know some people who do just fine dosing as little as once a week. Get yourself a micro-gram scale, and start super small - like 0.05 grams. You want to get it to the point where you can just barely notice a difference. Usually the sweet spot is around 0.08-0.11 grams but it varies with the potency of your shrooms. The way I know I have the right dose is that I don't actually experience any active effects, but it feels like the whole world is just a little bit brighter. It's as if the day was overcast, and all of a sudden the sun breaks through the clouds and you see everything in more vivid color.
I wish you luck and health comrade!
This is super helpful, thank you