i've sorta felt empty lately. i constantly feel this urge to self-medicate somehow, but i don't have access to weed and i refuse to drink alcohol because hangovers give me anxiety attacks. i don't know how to deal with this feeling of emptiness, since most of the time i just don't feel like interacting with anyone and i don't have much to do with the spare time i have, and i have a lot of it.
My hangover depressions have been getting really close to 'not worth it' with age. Really dreading losing the relaxation that comes with getting wasted.
for me it's this constant anxiety about literally everything i may or may not have done while drunk. it lasts for a day or two, which makes it so not worth drinking for me. on top of that, i just don't have the money to do it