Is it an adhd thing? Is it a codependent personality? Some kind of dissociation or sensory processing shit?
How do I overcome this problem? I have decent social skills but it feels so meaningless. I feel so lonely even around people.
I know I'm a stranger but shoot your best shot.
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Currently procrastinating on finding a therapist but this is something that I've been wanting to talk with someone about myself. I moved around a shit ton as a kid for my mom's career and at some point in my 30s, having lived at that point in the same spot for nearly 20 years with no plans to leave ever.... I realized I actually still viewed friends as being temporary things I'd eventually just have to say goodbye to...and so I shouldn't get too attached.
You didn't mention trying therapy, but it could possibly help.
Therapy was so beyond useless for me that I completely forgot I even tried it lol. Though it was only with somebody with a masters of public education degree. Maybe I needed an actual clinical psychologist but those are hard and expensive af to get nowadays in liberal cities
Yeah I just noticed you are using a lot of therapy words, which is often a sign of self diagnosis. I found my own self diagnosis to be very surface level and mostly off the mark the longer I've been in therapy. I'm not even sure if it has helped, but at least I'm trying something.