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  • yoink [she/her]
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    6 months ago

    as a mixed immigrant, is there ever a point where I'll actually feel at home somewhere? moving to Australia at 5 years old, as a brown skinned south east asian kid, was a hell of a thing and the end result is not fitting in in my 'home' country (which it really is not), but also permanently feeling like you're on the outside in the country you've lived in for decades

    there's a restlessness that's hard to define

    one day i'll make art about it

    • Lemmygradwontallowme [he/him, comrade/them]
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      6 months ago

      as a mixed immigrant, is there ever a point where I'll actually feel at home somewhere? moving to Australia at 5 years old, as a brown skinned south east asian kid, was a hell of a thing and the end result is not fitting in in my 'home' country (which it really is not), but also permanently feeling like you're on the outside in the country you've lived in for decades

      It's quite ironic really... you're actually geographically not that far from your homeland when in Australia... yet it's quite isolating there, innit?

      The effects of settler-colonialism...

      • yoink [she/her]
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        6 months ago

        i want to, and i'm trying but working all the time really do be getting me down and exhausted all the time

        but still, i feel like i got something to say in me

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      • Pluto [he/him, he/him]
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        6 months ago

        People called me "one fucked up hybrid" at one point for my mixed background.

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          • Pluto [he/him, he/him]
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            6 months ago

            Bwahahahahaha

            Yeah, I get that. I like the diversity of my ancestry, but not everyone saw it that way.

        • anarchoilluminati [comrade/them]
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          6 months ago

          I had a White dude the other day tell me I had "good bloodlines".

          That was the final red flag for me that he was probably a Nazi.

            • anarchoilluminati [comrade/them]
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              6 months ago

              I had the same reaction.

              This was at a bar and that made me feel, along with other things he said, that he was probably a Nazi. But luckily some Black guys arrived and started chatting with us, so I felt like I had some backup. Eventually the White guy left and I spoke with one of the other guys about Stalin because I was reading Losurdo's book and he was coincidentally very sympathetic.

              • Pluto [he/him, he/him]
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                6 months ago

                Oh fuck, well, at least it turned out alright; more than alright, you chanced upon some good comrades!

      • yoink [she/her]
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        6 months ago

        unfortunately for my mother in law I imagine this was the same point at which she found it completely acceptable to say unfathomably racist things in public

        god, reminds me of the time my mum (who is ALSO singaporean) started talking about 'it's not cool to be white anymore' and 'white people have it so hard'

        why does this happen lmao