The further away I move from liquor, the more visceral disgust I feel towards the substance. For years before I became an alcoholic, I had always maintained that alcohol is the absolute worst drug in every sense. Definitely the most inebriating, stupifying drug. Also the worst hangover with the exception of meth. My sleep is also starting to get a lot better now that I don't have to drink to get to sleep. There's no more shame from the immense effort that goes towards hiding an addiction. The further out I get, the more worth it it is

  • CommunistBear [he/him]
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    6 months ago

    Congratulations! I'm glad you've been able to kick it. I'm on day 18 and while I don't have the same revulsion I'm also finding it easier and easier to just keep going

    • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]
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      6 months ago

      I'm guessing it's just because of how horrible alcohol was for me that I have such a revulsion towards it now. I still crave it of course, but alcohol was significantly worse for me than a literal fentanyl addiction.

      • CommunistBear [he/him]
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        6 months ago

        Well if it helps you maintain your sobriety then maybe the revulsion is a good thing. That's wild that it was that worse than a fentanyl addiction. Why do you think that was?

        • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]
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          6 months ago

          Alcohol is by far the drug that makes you the stupidest the quickest. It changes decisionmaking in bigger and worse ways than opiates. Alcohol was physically and emotionally far worse for me than opiates. It made my suicidal ideation cease to just be ideation, I'd start doing major things to hurt myself because I was drunk, with alcohol even being a form of self harm. At its worst, I lost 100 pounds because of all of the vomiting I did while drinking. I made my seizure disorder much worse, and would have a grand mal seizure due to alcohol like once a month. Nerve pain from alcohol is also brutal.

          • CommunistBear [he/him]
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            6 months ago

            Nerve pain from alcohol is also brutal

            It took literally until you mentioned that for me to notice I haven't felt those weird nerve tingles in my hands in a few weeks. I always figured those were from an old back injury or something, not drinking as much as I did

            • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]
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              6 months ago

              Yeah that's nerve damage you're feeling. I get them less often, but get sensory overload a lot more than I used to now that I'm not drinking. Like my skin burns from touching things. I'm hoping this gets better the further away I get from alcohol

  • Alaskaball [comrade/them]A
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    6 months ago

    Good work! Counting days or weeks sober might seem like droll or even slow, and it totally can be a drag at times, but that time builds up just like how you're building yourself up: making new habits to replace old ones and learning to discover the parts of you that's been hiding away all this time. You got this! Keep us posted!

  • memory_adept [he/him]
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    6 months ago

    weirdly, potassium and b12 seem to help as far as easy shit you can grab from a grocery store to feel like less crap. iodine is also rly good but most multivitamins give you a consistent dose at the same time every day. potassium and b12 are really lacking in most stuff. potassium supplements don't do anything they have trace amounts and cellulose i hate the fda i hate the fda

    disclaimer i am not a diet nerd who thinks vitamins solve diseases they just really seem to prevent a lot of people thinking they need to get on medication or to do their picked poison

    i just slam this stuff whenevr i get dragged into drinking with people, my physiology just handles it poorly or maybe i am a man of wee resistance so i always feel like shit for like THREE DAYS???? if i do not do this. it also keeps me from wanting to drink a ton of caffeine and weed until i'm psycho. i have nothing else to contribute to this conversation good luck

    edit: i mean like oranges spinach and potatoes, bananas are just a big mass of sugar fuck bananas no potassium!!!!

    • Alaskaball [comrade/them]A
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      6 months ago

      I find eating B complex and D has helped my body feel whole in general in the sense of not having to imbibe any substances in general for a physical stimulation such as coffee and I believe its mainly because I'm a bit deficient in those areas due to environmental factors

  • Kuori [she/her]
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    6 months ago

    serious congratulations, alcohol is insidious and hard to kick.

    you seem like you've got it figured out, so my only advice is to be gentle with yourself if you hit a stumbling block.

  • oscardejarjayes [comrade/them]
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    6 months ago

    visceral disgust

    Yeah, I have similar feelings (though I've never been one to drink).

    absolute worst drug

    Yeah, seems like it