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Talk about what’s happening queerly in your life - like coming out, getting HRT, questioning, and all that good stuff.
:no-copyright: No cishets allowed :blob-no:
Finally properly realised that I was actually trans recently, not probably, not slightly gender curious, not just into crossdressing but actually trans.
cringe, mention of horny topic
and it fucking happened because someone slid into my discord DMs wanting to do fucking femdom roleplaying with me and started joking about forcibly feminising me and calling me her good little girl :ooooooooooooooh:
Big-time questioning for the past few weeks, exacerbated by working overtime six days a week
My questioning period coincided with a ton of stress at work. I don't have an answer for you but I've been there.. it sucks so bad :cat-trans:
The autistic paladin from the DnD movie has been running through my head :screm-a: it's never happened with a man before
I came out to my cousin last night and it went like super super well ❤️. I knew she'd always support me no matter what so of course she was the first one I wanted to come out to. We talked for 2 hours and it just... felt so amazing. Throughout my coming out process to myself, there's been so much pain due to the effects on my personal relationships, but this time it was just... it just felt so good and happy and positive. :cat-trans:
Electrolysis did not hurt nearly as bad as I was told it would lol, I can do this shit for an hour at a time. Barely feel anything, maybe I'm cheating cause I'm on an SNRI?
Anyone feel like this week in particular has been worse than ever for anti trans shit. I can't fucking go anywhere on the internet without seeing anti trans shit. Like rabid anti trans shit. Kid rock shooting beer cans because a trans person was on the can? Boycotts over Mr beast because his friend came out as trans. Very cool. What the fuck
Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm really bi, or that I am asexual and I'm calling myself bi as some cope that I might not die alone. I have never asked anyone out and besides the fear of dying alone, I have little to no motivation on finding a partner.
::: Warning: somewhat NSFW What is weird is that both men and women can turn me on, but upon the idea of actually doing the funky chicken with anyone, I'm not interested. Particularly with men, I tend to find myself attracted to either androgynous men or himbos, but then it occurs to me that maybe I'm straight and this is simply what I want to look like. However, every time I try to work up the courage to look for any chance to organize a date with a dude, I am overcome with guilt.
As for women, I want to simply chalk myself up as straight and just find a woman to marry like I "should". But that's the problem, I feel like I am only really into dating anyone, man or woman, over a sense of duty rather than I genuinely found a soulmate. :::
Either way, doesn't help that I am too poor to live where there are people my age, so I'm going to die alone in bumfuck nowhere anyway.
Fwiw, some asexuals do have sexual fantasies. Look up the terms cupiosexual and aegosexual if you're not already familiar with those. I avoided microlabels for the longest time but they really helped me figure things out.
Gotta consult for a tracheal shave! Shit is so expensive, like a used car... wtf. At least it's more permanent.
No, it's considered "cosmetic." Bottom surgery is covered though.
This is worse cause it's in Canada, lol, my province doesn't cover all gender affirming care.
It's weird to have gone through vaginoplasty only to find myself 7 months later wishing more than anything I could take it back and having dysphoria over having a vagina. Life sure is fucked sometimes
:meow-hug: I haven't had any surgeries or anything, but I have heard the first year after bottom surgery can be pretty rough. I hope everything works out for you comrade
Thank you 💜 I'm going to begin working towards phalloplasty and hopefully there won't be too many issues making it happen
Dilemma on this
I want to stop dilating because it's emotionally difficult, but once I stop and lose depth there's no going back. I know what I want right now, but I do worry about the possibility of my feeling shifting again
Ahhh :meow-knit:
I would like to celebrate that I worked up the courage and I bought my first skirt and thigh highs. After I recover from this cold, I want to get back to losing weight and fixing up my posture so hopefully I'll have a cute, fit, body too.
I've always wondered if I can pull off the femboy look and now I have an opportunity to try it out!
I wore makeup to my onlinr trans support group meeting - just some basic stuff like eyeliner, and mascara, and I got some new femmy glasses... and I wore a padded bra and a skirt and some jewelry.
At one point during the support group I turned on my self view camera and for maybe the first time in my life I was actually happy with how I looked. Idk what about it but I absolutely HATE looking at myself during zoom phone calls, but this time it's liek, I was like oh my god is that me? I can actually look at myself and I'm not a little disgusted? Is this what I've been missing out on my whole life??
It was actually a little distracting so I turned it off. But yeah, idk, it was definitely an interesting moment that felt really good 💙
I literally couldn't look at myself in the mirror or on video before I cracked my egg. I remember walking into a lecture that was simultaneously broadcasting for people who were sick (or just didn't want to go lol) and catching a pretty lady in the corner of my eye when I was VERY early in transition, pre HRT even. And it turns out it was me! It was a little shocking and made me laugh. Now I can look in mirrors if I'm femmed up, which has been nice.
I could look at myself in the mirror. It was just always kinda a mindfuck for me. Like It was like "Is that me? Really? Weird". But on video, pictures, etc, i couldn't stand looking at myself. Even in a past relationship, my then girlfriend took a video of us having sex (with my consent of course). Watching it I wanted to puke. I never really understood why. After my egg cracked its been now even hard to look in the mirror, so it being not hard feels really really amazing. But I'm very early and not on HRT or anything.. hopefully eventually I can get to where you're at 💙
