Once every week and a half or so, my entire sense of self and social confidence and whatever else just collapses altogether and I end up like this: either upset and crying over how bad I am at talking or angry and fucking grouchy about how bad I am at talking.
Yes "talking" literally is just posting online. I'm not gonna go try to ambush people irl with my weird shit, where would I even go? That stupid new canadian communist party? Local book club? Big brain ideas. Posting online is literally the only social interaction I getoutside of my wife, and I have to otherwise I will recede completely and probably become a full-tilt neet ot whatever.
Most days of a given week, I post and talk to people either by genuinely being happy and talking to people cause it's nice, mischevious shitposting instinct or rarely (read: not on hexbear) using spite as my motivator to post weird(I also naturally post weird without spite frequently).
I have really completely done the fake-it-till-I-make-it shit, and I'm actually pretty good at counjuring/manifesting/summoning via blood sacrifice confidence and self-assuredness, the ability to not worry so much what people think. I guess probably due to my social battery dying routinely though, there are days like today where the air just gets let out and I feel like dogshit and sad and hate everything and everybody. It's unpleasant honestly. I want not to be like this, it would be cooler to be emotionally stable. Pls tell me to touch grass?
If you live near a metropolitan city, there's probably a bunch of events for "weirdos" like furries, goths, alts, punks, queers, trans, etc. Just gotta find one Instagram of the event planners and then just trawl through their following list. That's how I found all the weird shit in my my city
Fuck can you imagine using instragram? Gross.
Idk if 120,000 is big enough for this, also I'd probably die. I am fucking scared to be near people and not mask(ND) at this point. There's a queer center thing downtown and I keep walking past it.
At least look and see if the queer center has anything posted that catches your eyes, usually they have such things where you don't have to be right up on it nor anyone else. 120k is plenty.
No that's fuckin scary :| what am I gonna do, just walk in there? What is IN there anyway? Probably a front desk lady...
Nah don't hype yourself out. I very much doubt there's any personnel at the front desk, and if there is they're busy. You're overthinking it.
Wtf am I gonna do, just walk in there? No way, I need a plan or something...
Just go in there without thinking, but if you need to super over think it pick a day, time and walk in there to get what events are going on in the community. That's it.
I mean nobody's forcing you to post. I never do posts or stories and 99% of my following are just party planners, bars, clubs, and political orgs
That's fair, I think 120000 is definitely big enough to find stuff happening downtown on insta
Nah I mean having an account for the service at all, ech. Facebook shit, fucc the zucc.
I hope it is...