For all the new folks, welcome! I generally make these threads every so often to check in on people, let people vent, or share cool news they have.
So, come on in! What's been going on with you lately? How are you feeling about it?
Remember, you are loved :stalin-heart:
As for myself, my partner's brain med switch is NOT going well at all. I've been trying my best to take care of them, but I know we just gotta wait this out. Other than that, my drummer seems to have calmed down after this weekend, and we're back to writing stuff. Getting the fuck out of this city for the rest of our summer shows. Beyond that, starting gabapentin today for my heart, and after having tried some from my partner, it seems to work decently! Also, I can get back to running today now that a foot blister has healed.
My 16 yo nephew has stage 2b cancer and is going through chemo. His parents are drunken messes and out of comission. The rest if us are trying or sort through the labyrinth of docs bills ect. As for charity - what a fucking headache.
None of this would be needed if we had universal health care.
Might have to start a GoFundMe page, of which I know nothing about except it's going into a pile of other medically desperate gofundme pages.
Any pointers on chartity? Or what's out there?
I can write fairly well when inspired and I'd do anything for my nephew.
healthcare should be treated like a basic human right. sorry you’re going through this.
Thanks :meow-hug: I hope if anything it shows my CHUD parents what they are supporting by insisting on private healthcare over :frothingfash: gooberment healthcare.
One silver lining is my nephew is such a baller despite his home conditions he earned enough credits to graduate a year early.
I have no suggestions to offer unfortunately, but sending good vibes to you and yours :meow-hug:
I only know Canadian charities and orgs for cancer patients (yes even in universal healthcare there are still expenses due to bullshit like travel and rent and losing your job and debt etc).
It might help if you reach out to a social worker. There may be orgs in your state that can get you short term relief. Your states government may have programs for cancer patients - medicaid may also apply for your situation and may cover a lot and getting some inpatient services hooked up could include social workers. It's sometimes possible to get short term disability due to sickness or get other coverage. Also, churches, synagogues, guduwaras, etc etc anything you can turn to.
I'm sorry this is happening
I feel like I've been at various levels of depression for the last decade or so. It takes a lot of conscious effort for me to get out of the apartment and have any kind of social life, and when people ask "How are you?" I become anxious because I think I'm always answering something like "tired" or "surviving" or something, and I hate constantly being a drain on everyone around me.
It may take some effort, but at least you're doing it! Do you have anyone to talk to about this? Therapist or anyone?
I am a grad student right now and, in theory, the university allows me to book counseling appointments online, However, when I tried to do so, there were none available. I'm going to be optimistic and assume that this is a failure of the website, not of the counseling service.
Having said that, I am not optimistic about getting help any time soon. What I suspect is that I'll end up getting put on a waitlist. The last time I tried to get counseling through a university, it took months to get off the waitlist. When I do get off the waitlist, I might be able to get regular appointments for a few months before I have to get on the waitlist again.
Which again, causes me a bit of anxiety, because it puts into stark relief the fact that having someone to talk to is a luxury and I'm lucky if I can get it at all. It's a very zero-sum game, and if I get counseling, that means that someone else is being forced to wait -- in which case, what makes ME so deserving of help in a way that they aren't?
Also, it puts me in a mindset that I can't afford to screw this up, which just seems like an unhealthy attitude to go into counseling with. I hear people talk about the importance of being able to talk about anything in therapy, and I find myself having difficulty with that when I feel rushed and I know that it's only by a stroke of luck that I was able to get the appointment in the first place.
Mental healthcare i a gauntlet for sure. Hope you're able to find some help soon :meow-hug:
Slowly (probably too slowly) starting to look for another job as my cushy "take pictures of arrow heads, 20 hours a week" job is coming to an end. Fighting with online job application systems is low key making me very anxious.
I am back on the job market for the first time since the pandemic started (financial support which allowed me to hide at home has dried up). Allow me to join the chorus of voices who say that it sucks. I am so frustrated. I’ve been thinking of the local grocery store as the only place that will hire me (I’ve had almost nothing but white collar jobs since I graduated college) and I console myself with the idea of unionizing the workers there but I actually see them all the time and most appear to have either accepted the shittiness or are just planning to move on the moment they find something better. Being proletarianized wouldn’t be so bad if I had other proletarians to be with :deeper-sadness:
It really is a numbers game, I've found. Good luck navigating the job search!
Have a phone interview scheduled for a recruiting research job next tuesday. Not immediately jazzed about the position and a bit suspicious at how quickly they responded to my application compared to other places, but willing to hear them out. If nothing else it's interview experience. I just keep repeating to myself that I know I can do this, if I can just claw my way into a stable job that I don't hate I can be an adult and call my own shots and figure out how I want to live my life
Good luck! It took me like....18 months to find my current job from my last one. It's a numbers game, and eventually you just start to automatically answer every question asked perfectly because you've done it so much
Been spending more time here since I fully ditched Reddit, been nice getting to slowly learn some of the community regulars through their posts and comments. I’ve been reading Marx and Marxist theory for ~7 years now, but it’s been a mostly solitary endeavor, so it’s nice to get more practical ideas, away from theory and contemplation.
starting gabapentin today for my heart
What does this do for your heart, if you don’t mind me asking?
Hey, welcome! Hope you enjoy your stay here!
And my primary heart issue is that it often (throughout the day on and off, every day) feels like it's beating extra hard. Not necessarily fast, just hard, and it produces an uncomfortable sensation.
That doesn’t sound fun. It sounds similar to hypertrophic cardiomyopathy? That runs in my family. Luckily symptom-free so far, but I completely empathize with your situation, as every time my heart skips a beat I wonder if it’s because now I’m finally getting sick. (Mostly psychological for sure)
That’s great that you are able to run though. I’m sure you appreciate it more than most. 🙂
Well, I'm a corgi, so I need my exercise!
You know, my mom has/had a heart condition that starts with a T. Can't recall the name, but a few years ago when she got corrective surgery, suggested it might run in the family. Unfortunately, I can only afford to fix my brain or body, not both at the same time, so I've chosen to focus on my brain this summer with therapy and a psychiatrist.
Love getting aggressively misgendered by the catholic hospital, God I hate private hospitals
Thats good but also is a bit insensitive to post in this context
Had a depressive episode last week and was honestly surprised by the sheer amount of people to come out of the woodwork to check up on me
Apparently me being a Midwestern Oaf has made a lot of people happy and consider me a friend
Really did a lot to make me feel better
Also, my birthday is coming up, so I'm probably gonna have a cookout and those are always fun
Glad you have the friendship. Enjoy the cookout! Happy (early) birthday!
aw man the pharmacy has left me on read for my refill request too. good luck on getting ahold of the good stuff
Abraham Lincoln?
Jokes aside, good luck! Hope you're able to get what you need. I was on wellbutrin for ADHD a few months ago, but turns out it aggrivates my bipolar2.
STRUGGLING.
Doing my first actual writing task for work, like, ever. There's trauma in them/their hills
also lol first world problems my life is real fucking cushy my problems aren't real or valid
Got paid direct deposit with tuition reimbursement included. Had breakfast with two of my brothers, stocked up at the dispensary, took two fat bong rips at home. Now in waiting room at podiatrist to get new orthotics fitted to new boots. Feeling excited and happy for the first time in a while. I'll get to not be in pain. I can afford some frivolous purchases to make myself feel better, too. Today is gonna be a good day.
I have been feeling like total shit in terms of mental health. And physical health.
cw: self-harm/suicide
I was hoping to come off my SNRIs but there's just no way. I've been suicidal lately and pretty depressed. I was taking care of my ex for so long I don't even know what my life is like without care giving for them, I don't know any self-care stuff. They kept our pets. Between the cats and my ex, those were like the reasons I didn't follow through on suicidal thoughts, I was always worried about who would take care of them if I did it. And now I don't have that as a reason to keep living - I always felt really insecure about that being why I'm still alive, I always felt really dumb about it but it was so whatever. I got my SNRI dosage increased, probably for the best. I've been stress eating and self-harming with other stuff I won't get into and that's just not good. I always feel like an idiot afterwards but I just can't seem to stop myself anymore.
My cars alternator is going, can't run A/C AND charge the battery anymore :( I have the money to fix it but I just don't have the wherewithal to call a mechanic and fix it. I don't think I could reach it where it is (thanks American compact designers) on my own. I bet it's just got grime or oil on the brushes or some small component needs changing but I just can't take it apart on my own and I don't trust a mechanic to actually just do the labor needed instead of fucking me over and insisting on getting a new alternator and charging me too much on labor.
My therapist used to tell me, before our insured sessions ended, that I was a good person or whatever and that always used to make me cry. I have a really hard time receiving compliments or praise, I hate being celebrated.
I did acupuncture the other day for pain and digestive stuff. I've done it for pain and it works, medical science backs that up too. Adherents swear it works for autoimmune and all kinds of issues - I don't think there's any medical evidence for that but hey, feels like I'm doing something other than taking different pills over and over.
A new (or more likely remanufactured) alternator is probably a cheaper and better idea than fixing the existing one and risking it just failing again for a different reason in 6 months, unless the existing one were easy to get at and work on. It's not like it gets thrown away if you get a new one, that's what the core charge is for.
I have no words for shitty mechanics tho. Shit is always so expensive and often not done that much better than you would have done it at home, if at all.
I wish I had more to say, comrade. You are loved here, I recognize you around, and always enjoy your posts. My partner is going through similar feelings due to med switches, I actually posted about it last night in c/mentalhealth if you care to read. Sending you love and good vibes :meow-hug:
Honestly pretty rough. My wife and I were looking into buying a house and it's looking like that's going to have to be put off because of something I thought I fixed years ago. We're also running into car problems at the same time so it's been hard.
I also am really struggling with loneliness since I transitioned. It's a new type of feeling alone that is brand new to me. I read that it's common, but that doesn't make it easier to navigate. Nothing insurmountable but nice to get out anonymously on the internet.
You are loved here :stalin-heart:
Good luck navigating the house and car!
my mental health has been pretty bad. I was seeing this girl and she ended things over text and didn’t even give me my stuff face to face, she told me to chill out when I called her out on it and basically acted like everything was just pointless. Made me feel like a piec of garbage cast aside and idk how to really recover my confidence rn
I'm sorry to hear that. You are loved here, for whatever that is worth. I've had my share of bad breakups, and I can promise that things will get better with time. They just really suck in in the moment.
I lost my wedding ring like 6 weeks ago, and today I found it in my freezer.
Actually hite quite the low point. Last week something in my brain broke, and I'm stuck feeling a great sense of dread, hopelessness, and can't quite cope with the fleeting nature of it all
:meow-hug: Love you comrade. If you ever need an ear, just holler!
