So I just had a rather breakthrough therapy session that's making me really question my sexual orientation. So far as I've always thought, I've been straight. I'm a guy currently married to a straight woman. I realized I have deep romantic feelings for a male friend of mine. But here's the thing, I've never felt this way about other guys. I've never looked at guys the same way I've looked at girls. Never felt the desire to watch gay porn. I had an opportunity to hook up with a guy once when I had a threesome with him and his girlfriend, but didn't want to. Yet when my friend came to visit recently, I felt a deep romantic, and even physical, attraction to him. Is it possible to be gay just for a single person?
Idk why but it wasn't easy for me to write this up. But figure I should start trying to figure this stuff out. I'm feeling really confused right now and could use some insight from my LGBTQ comrades.
While the Kinsey scale isn't exactly comprehensive, it might give you some better ways of thinking about it. I think a lot of people don't exist within the binaries.
Though it also gets complicated with the differences between romantic and sexual attraction. Take for example, a hetero-romantic bisexual, who may be sexually attracted to (and likely enjoys sex with) same-sex partners, but finds relationships much more enjoyable with the opposite sex.
At that point at least for myself, I start wondering if gender/sex matters to me at all, or if its simply the level of personal connection to the person, and whether I've come to terms with my being that way.
Honestly, I need to read more current LGBTQ literature, I get a lot of second-hand.
This is usually considered the main difference between bisexual and pansexual, so you could say you're pan.
Yeah and I guess that's something I really haven't explored, as I'm in a committed relationship at the moment. Maybe I can do some reading and see if I can get some clues that way.