I had lost the arm as a child due to some sort of animal attack, but the fact that I didn't escape the animal before it severely chewed my arm such that it required amputation at the shoulder, was because in the dream I also had some sort of disorder that made me experience occasional "attacks" wherein I lost motor control and sensation in my limbs.

In any case, I was really into guns in this dream, I was in a shooting club and everything, and more specifically I was fascinated by the history of how firearms have been adapted for those with upper limb amputations and prostheses, especially the type of prosthesis that I had. I had in general made the arm a part of my identity, like I wasn't ashamed of it, I'd make jokes about it, I'd wish that the arm would work "more like in the movies" but I still managed to navigate my daily life just fine.

I guess if anything, I woke up feeling kind of freaked out by how my brain had managed to come up with such a radically different path for my life, and made me accept this path so unquestioningly, as if I had really been on it the whole time. It was kinda like Zhuangzi's famous butterfly dream in a sense, and made me wonder how much people should really stake on something so fragile and malleable as identity.

  • the_itsb [she/her, comrade/them]
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    17 days ago

    made me wonder how much people should really stake on something so fragile and malleable as identity

    this feels important and I'm grateful to have read it, thank you ❤️

  • Dolores [love/loves]
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    17 days ago

    would've been a right proper scare if you'd lain funny and the arm was numb when you got up

    • Erika3sis [she/her, xe/xem]
      hexagon
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      17 days ago

      That has been happening to me a lot, for all I know that might've been part of the inspiration.

  • allthetimesivedied [they/them, she/her]
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    17 days ago

    I’ve read (Reddit comments and shit, never any “official” or scientific source) about people having dreams like this, where they’re so organic and detailed and seem to last long spans of time; AFAIK there isn’t a term for it and I wish there were/hope there is.

    • the_itsb [she/her, comrade/them]
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      17 days ago

      Do you have dreams like that?

      I get them, different events for different dreams but usually in the same setting, a version of my hometown. I've driven on the same imaginary highway for different purposes in different dreams many times, have to drive up the terrifyingly steep hill for a different reason, end up overlooking the rocky valley at the top of the mountain for different reasons, etc.

      • allthetimesivedied [they/them, she/her]
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        16 days ago

        I don’t. I typically don’t have dreams at all most nights because of all the stimulants I abuse (I’ll sleep but not experience REM sleep or something).